Thug Cry

01

- 𝚃𝚎𝚊𝚘𝚗𝚗𝚊 𝙼𝚊𝚌𝚔 -
𝙷𝚘𝚞𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚗, 𝚃𝚎𝚡𝚊𝚜

I woke up to my phone alarm going off i clicked stop and turned the other way trying to get comfortable again.

I jumped up and realize what day it was today i look around and realize i was i my mom room there's a henny bottle next to me on the bed. I've been dreading this day for the past week now

I sighed while everything started coming back to me which caused me to have a headache and i started crying i threw the empty henny bottle towards the wall and cried until i finally get out the bed

Today my father and my twin brother and my other two brothers are in Texas for my mom funeral they all live in chicago while i lived here with my mom

i don't think i'm able to go to this funeral i said to my self in the mirror of the bathroom while tear came out my eyes

i went in the shower and took a hot shower i didn't come out until 2 hours when i realize i was going to be late i did my thing and put on a simple black dress with sandals and i flat iron my weave i didn't even bother to do make up didn't have the time or the energy

i picked up my phone and seen that my twin Tariq texted me

Twin 🥰👫🏽

we at the church wya

i'm On my way!

omw tf
cool text me when you reach

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i left him on read and got in my car and started driving i was honestly debating on if i should just turn back around but i know my mom would want me to be there for her

i pulled up to the church and seen many people i ain't even know swear niggas don't know you until you dead I thought shaking my head

i seen my bestfriend and walked over to her she gave me a hug and held my hand an we walked in the church together

everyone was seated i saw my dad and brothers up front we walked over to them and i sat next to Tariq and he gave me a hug i rest my head on his shoulders the whole time i couldn't look at her i couldn't look at the casket in front of me

i wasn't even able to say my eulogy i was really torn a part bad bitches don't cry but this shit hurt
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I'm back home now by my self i just wanted to be by my self my dad offered for me to come to the hotel they was staying at but i rejected i wanted to just be alone before i leave this house behind

i opened my room door and look at the empty room filled with moving boxes i sighed and closed the door i'm really selling this house the house i grew up in

i went back to my mom room and just laid there and cried

"fuck my life" i said as i cried my self to sleep

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-kadene🕺🏽