Scared Of The Past

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Two months after the war

Some debris still littered the ground. The smell of smoke and death still filtered through the air. It had been two months since the war was over. Yet the aftereffects were still greatly felt.

Ginny and Harry had finally found each other. Ron had kissed me at the end of the fight. We haven't talked about it since. Our interactions are always very embarrassing. Ron is sometimes pushy. I know he has feelings for me, he shows it to me. He hugs me, he joins me at night before I sleep, he even kisses my cheek before I fall asleep.

I let him do it, in spite of myself. I think I'm letting him know I'm uncomfortable, but I guess he doesn't notice it.

My heart is still way too broken over Draco's departure. Sometimes I go to our room and look at the vast memories that remain there. There are still some clothes belonging to him. Unfortunately, his scent disappeared with his departure. I have nothing left of him.

For about two weeks, I have felt even worse. Tiredness, vomiting and frequent nervous breakdowns. I think I'm starting to realize he's really gone.

I was in the middle of a discussion with the toilet when Ginny knocked on the bathroom door.

- Hermione? Are you OK? She asked me with her small voice.

- Uh ... Yes!

I hurry to wipe the corner of my mouth and cool my face. My reflection in the mirror gives me another high heart. My eyes are puffy, my complexion is more than pale, and my hair is in disarray. No way Ginny would believe my lie.

Ginny opened the door and seeing my pace, she stopped.

-Mione! You are far from going well! She exclaimed.

I looked at Ginny's worry and started to cry bitterly. I couldn't pretend Draco was just a dream anymore. Ginny hugged me, not sure what to do.

-Come, let's go to our room.

She led me to the bedroom, being careful to support me. I barely had the strength to walk. The pain was too much to bear now. We sit on my bed. Ginny looked at me with eyes filled with worry and sadness

-Mione, what's going on, you can tell me....

- Promise me not to tell anyone, ever. I looked at her with tearful eyes. You have to tell no one about this, Ginny.

-I swear.

And that's where it all came out. The first dates, the looks, the sweet words, everything. Ginny looked at me, without judgment. Only compassion. When I finished my story, she was still looking at me.

-Oh Mione... She hugged me back and cried too. Why didn't you tell us?

-I was scared. We were afraid.

-I admit that Harry and Ron would have caused quite a scene!

We burst out laughing. It was the first time in two months that I laughed heartily. The first time I felt lighter. All that heavy burden was no longer just on my shoulders.

-So... Draco and you eh? Ginny tried a crappy joke that made me laugh even more. So how was it? Tell!

Her question surprised me and left me speechless that she wanted to know.

-It was perfect. Magic.

The memories of that night came back to me like a wave of happiness. On the other hand, Ginny seemed to become more than thoughtful.

-What? I ask her incredulously.

-It's just that ... Let it go.

-No! Tell me!

-It's just that ... it's been two weeks since you seem to be doing even worse ... You are still throwing up, you are on edge ... Did you protect yourself?

-What? Of course! Actually no...

-HERMIONE!!

-WHAT! It was in the heat of the moment I don't know, but it's impossible!

-Come with me.

She took me by the hand and carried me to the hospital wing. It's just impossible. It can't be like that. We arrive in front of a closed door. The infirmary is closed.

-Good... So let's find another way. Ginny seemed determined to have the answer to my condition.

-Come on Ginny, that's ridiculous. Let's go back to the dorms.

-NO! We'll find out what's going on. She dragged me to the library. We will find a way to find out.

-At the library. I asked incredulously.

Ginny stopped and looked at me with one of her looks.

-Hermione, I'm not kidding. You told me your secret, so I'm keeping it. However, I see that something is going on and we'll find out what. Since it's a secret, I'm not going to go talk to Miss McGonagall about it to find a solution. I'm not going to see my parents either. So stop pissing me off and walk.

I resolved myself to listen to her and started walking again. I can't believe this girl is so supportive of me. We arrive at the library and Ginny leads me straight into the spell section. -Okay, so let's start our research.

-Hey Ginny? -Yes? -Thank you for being here. I am so lucky that you are my best friend. I took her in my arms.

-Don't worry Mione. You would have done it for me. Come on, let's start our research.

After two hours of research, I find a spell that makes sense. I let Ginny know and we go to our room.

-Are you ready?

-Do I have the right to say no?

Ginny began to prepare the room as the book told us. I settled on the bed and Ginny recited the spell.

After a few endless minutes, we had our answer.

-Oh Merlin ...

-It's going to be fine Mione... I'm here...

-/- 

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