Shinso X reader

Lost Time...

Y/N POV:
I can't do it anymore. I can't... I just can't.
No, I can, I have to. I can't let go, not yet.

As you're walking down the halls of UA you accidentally bump into someone without looking up you mumble out an apology and walk faster. It was thankfully time for lunch, and you were headed to an abandoned park near the school. As soon as you step out of the gates of UA high you feel a tear trickle down your cheek, you wipe it away and make it disappear as quickly as it came. You keep your head down as you make the 10 minute walk to the park. Only needing to lift your head your head when you are crossing the street or to get around people.

The park is the only thing that makes you want to keep going everyday. The only thing left of your family... or the memory of them at least. You walked to the bridge and stood there staring at the constant flow of water. This was your safe haven, no one came here... here is where you felt safe, love... even though that love was trapped in a memory.

Here is where you can cry and just let go. So that's exactly what you did. You stepped on the side of the bridge and began to walk it's length. You smiled as tears flowed down your face and you reached your hand out to the innermost side of the bridge, like you used to when you were younger. You look to your outstretched hand and realize, yet again, they are actually gone. And they'll never come back, you'll never be able to hold your fathers hand and see your mothers smiling face, you won't even get to figure out what kind of person your baby sister would've been.

The realization hits you like a bus and you bring your hand to your and hold your wrist reminiscing on what it felt like to hold your fathers large hand in your smaller one. You turn to face the water and lift one foot up and look into the sun. The only reassuring thing letting you know that you're still alive are the tears rolling down your chubby cheeks. Even at 17 you're still chubby and that makes you feel even worse. The thought of jumping crosses your mind again. If you did no one would find you for a while you would be alone, like you've always been. You look down at your foot that's over the ledge and you place it back down. You sit on the ledge crying and shaking your head realizing how bad you've gotten. This gnawing voice in your brain says "No one cares about you it'd be easy to jump and let go, to never look back, right?" You get off the ledge back onto the bridge you wipe your tears away before you do something you know you'll regret, and mumble "Why didn't you take me with you?" before walking away. You stop at a convenient store and use the restroom to wash your face. You take the eye drops out of your bag and put some in your eyes to take away the redness and puffiness. You but a water and leave, making your way back to school. This time with a smile on your face so that no one will question your whereabouts and get worried because that's the last thing you need.

You see class 1-A all together and even though Bakugo looks like he wants to murder someone you realize that they're all a family. They'd do anything for one another.

This makes you genuinely smile, for the first time in a long time. You ask your teacher to allow you to go to Recovery Girl because you weren't feeling well. You knew that being Recovery Girls apprentice you could talk to her. Your teacher let you go you didn't usually leave class you went after school. You began your trek to Recovery Girl you knew you wouldn't be able to go through anything today.

As soon as you walked into Recovery Girls nursing station you saw that she was dealing with a patient from class 1-C. You walk I and ask her "Mrs.R is there anything I can do to help you?"

She whipped her head around to look at you "You're a bit early today don't you think. Go grab some eye drops and a heat packs please love."

You smile "Yes ma'am. I got permission to come by the way I know you think I'm skipping. I'm not though, I promise." You turn and grab the ice pack out the freezer and grab a heat pack and break them to activate them you then get the eye drops out of the cabinet. You struggled a bit so you had to get a stepping stool. But did get it, almost falling, but you got it none the less.

Recovery Girl notices this "Are you feeling okay today dear? Usually you'd have just made them come to you. Sit. What's wrong?"

You laugh a little shakily and feel the tears begging to brim. You look up at the ceiling in order to hold them at bay. You heat recovery girl mumble "Oh dear"

You walk over to her with a sad smile on your face and hand her the items you retrieved "Can I hep you today, please?"

She takes the items and sets them down she grabs one of your hands and touches your face you see her start to tear up "I'm sorry this is a hurt that I can't take away. What I'd do if I could."

You grab her hand that's in your cheek and squeeze it while removing it from your face "Just being able to help you eases my pains. Now let me help you and please don't ever cry over me. You know I'm bound to have a job similar to this one day anyway might as well apprentice under you right?" You walk around her after dropping her hand and grab the items she set on the table "Class 1-C correct?"you ask the boy with violet eyes. You knew exactly who he was, you knew everyone. However, Hitoshi Shinso was someone you found incredibly intriguing.

"Yeah, you're the chick that bumped into me earlier huh?"

You looked at him shocked and remember what had happened earlier "I am very sorry about that I was not paying attention to where I was walking. I was in my own head in a sense. Now can you tell me what is wrong? Or do you not know?"

He looked at you cryptically as if in he was trying to figure something out "Well... I don't really know my head hurts and it's kinda fuzzy-"
"Have you been overusing your quirk?" Interrupted with my questions. Oops...
He looked very confused and pointedly at you "No I bumped into some chick in the hall and haven't been feeling well after that. Once she bumped into me, I got this... weird feeling. Was it your quirk?"

Once he said that you realized that you actually may be at fault here your quirk is very powerful you can control peoples emotions and you can heal them both mentally and physically this was a quirk you'd gotten from your mother you received your dad's telekinetic quirk. However it doesn't work on yourself. Your face flushes and you look at recovery going to realize that she's no longer in the room. You look back at Shinso "I apologize yet again. Do you mind if I take it back? You won't remember the feeling."

Shinso looks at you and nods his head. You smile and reply "Alright well I need you to lie back and close your eyes."

"What's your name?" he asks.
This caught you off guard "Huh?"
"Your name what is it?"
"Oh Y/N, you won't remember it."
"Why not?" He asked incredulously.

You look at him "Well you see once I take my quirk off you you won't remember anything during the time it was on you...Okay close your eyes please."

"Tell me again..."
"Huh?"
"When I'm normal or whatever tell me again, your name I mean."
You reply "Sure." But you know that you won't, because he won't remember asking you in the first place. One less person to worry about.
Right?

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So I hope you guys liked the first chapter...
Let me know how you like it so far.
-Love K 🖤