For You ( Riansh ff)

Chapter 3

Riddima

I flinched at his sudden releasing anger. I did not mean to get him mad. I just... was mad that he saved me, I really do not want to live anymore. I certainly, want to die.

He left the room which left just one question in my mind,

Why does he cares about me so much?

Why is he so concerned to save me and become the knight in shining armour?

I don't really care about it, even if he is or at the least, I believe I don't.

I slipped out of the bed and walked till the bathroom, I am determined to do this, no one can stop me.

I slid the door open and walked till the wash basin.

Splash!

I splashed water on my face, the water was cold enough to bring me shuddering through my spines, trying to bring myself to realisation about what was happening, and I splashed cold water once more. 'What is wrong?' I splashed again.

'Why?' I splashed once again.

I looked through the mirror at my own reflection. My broken reflection, it reminded me of that day, my worst nightmare. I looked down and shook my head.

I glanced at the mirror again, this time my reflection was more clear in accordance to the clean reflection I had today. I was still thinking about what Vansh had said, the words came back to me.

He shouted at me, he yelled at me, he was angry, for the first time, with me, why? Why was he exactly angry.

I recalled the words I had said, nothing was that offensive that he shouted back, he looked really mad, mad at what?

'You don't understand' I shouted

Is that the reason? But, how can that be this offending? Unless, I do not know what the other person has in mind. Yeah, that can be the only reason, if I am sure enough. My theory sounds vague, but I want to believe it. I held the basin for support.

'You are nuts'

I looked up

"Who are you?" I said as my own reflection started talking to me.

'Your conscience' it said

"What? What nonsense," I accused at my own reflection or to say my own conscience.

'Stupid, stop talking! Let me finish what I am saying' it shot back.

I nodded at my own conscience, that is stupid, others will call me mental.

'Your true love betrayed you, more like, the person whom you loved was faking everything' my eyes widened at that thought, yes, that is the truth, that had successfully broke my heart, I still could not get over that betrayal.

My eyes eventually started filling, but I held it in. It is a waste to cry for something which was nothing but a stupid betrayal. My body stiffened.

'Look, how pathetic can you get, still crying for something that has bad memories, my point is-' I cut it off.

"Get to the point!" I demanded

'Okay, okay, fine, I was telling you, you have gone through so much, you have a whole life ahead, why are you wasting it? And the yelling thing, you want to understand or not, it bothers you badly or not, that person cares for you seriously, you are missing something really good, look through it!' It said.

"Rubbish, unruly!" I shouted "shut your mouth for gods sake, I don't want to listen to any of your stupid sayings, I am really in a foul mood, don't play along, your advices are no good, just, keep your mouth shut!" I yelled

I stomped off the bathroom, I do not want to think about what my conscience spoke to me, I really do not care what it said, because it is no good.

It was late, much late, it was past ten, I should have slept already.

I walked to the closet, since, my clothes are wet, really wet, I had to change to something comfortable. I picked the most sincere dress, a sea green, silk with golden border lined kurta-saree.

It was beautiful, my favourite, but my interest was fading on everything. I did not like anything about it now.

I changed my dress.

I walked out of the closet, and slipped inside the bed. I wanted to drift off to sleep as fast as possible. I woke up and leaned on the bed.

What if he comes in? Should I wait? I do not know.

My mind and heart argued about this and the argument went back and forth. I was so tired thinking about it, I accidentally drifted off to sleep.

Vansh

I hesitated to walk inside, I had actually yelled at her and I was not ready to face her. After a long argument between my body organs which was extended long, I twisted the door knob. In a seconds time, I entered the room.

Just to see her sleeping form, but, she looked uncomfortable, she leaned on the bed for support which was quite uncomfortable  if not for her, it was for me. Her neck could have a horrible sprain due to this.

I did not want to take a chance, I walked till the bed and corrected her sleeping position, she looked much better now.

At least, I was relieved to see her in that position or she else would have got a bad neck ache.

She had sided herself in the other side maybe thinking about me, but no, I would never sleep there.

I took a blanket and a pillow, walked up till the couch and slept there or maybe trying to sleep. I probably, could not, I was restless and only god knows why.

I took turns but failed anyways.

I looked at her sleeping form, she was sleeping peacefully, at least that was what I had thought until, she started shaking terribly and started to pant badly.

Her lips left a scream of terror. Was she having a nightmare? I got up quickly and just as I did, her eyes shot open, terror written all over her face and in an instant, she was sitting up on the bed.

She was sweating and panting the river out and I do not know why, I got scared somehow due to that. I walked till her.

"Er... Are you... ok?" I asked a bit hesitant, she quickly squeezed me in a hug.

Uh...That was unexpected

I was shocked, she actually hugged me, she pulled me to a hug and my heart started pounding badly, it was beating faster than usual. I should get a doctor checkup, I think I might have a cardiac disease, it happens whenever I see her close to me, must be a disorder.

I let go off her, she clutched me so tightly, it was hard at first and then, I think so, realisation hit her and she let go of me, her face was red, she stroke her hair back and there was a moment of awkward silence.

I broke the silence, "Um... G-go back t-to sleep" I stuttered, Why did I stutter? Um, I really need a doctor, What kind of disease is that?

She did not seem to notice my stuttering and simply nodded. Just nodded, nothing else. Ugh! What is wrong? What am I thinking?!

She drifted off to sleep, I will ask Angre to get me an appointment of a doctor.