The Beauty Of Grace

I'd rather eat pickles than kiss you

Fear.

A feeling I'd forbidden myself to feel.

A feeling that made me lose everything.

A feeling that cost the world a ball of sunshine.

A feeling that made me what I am today.

I didn't allow myself to get scared.

Instead,using the advantage of the wall to my right,I placed my legs on it and pushed myself backwards.

Whoever it was that grabbed me had obviously doubted my ability to defend myself.

They got  taken by surpise and slammed against the wall behind.

"Ouch,that fucking hurt." Someone muttered from behind.

Apparently,it was a guy's voice.

A voice that suspiciously sounded familiar.

Turning around,I found Noah slouching against the wall.

"Are you fucking serious?" were the first words to leave my mouth.

Rubbing his neck,he replied sheepishly,"It's not what it looks like."

"Then what the hell does it look like Noah?" I retorted.

"Look,hear me out.You happened to be walking in the same direction I was walking in.Which leads to my house,by the way.I found that as an opportunity to talk to you." He finished with a shrug.

I was about to reply,but then he added,

"And don't tell me I should've approached you normally.After ignoring me the whole day,I don't think you would've done anything but ran away."

Thinking about it,he was right.

I was done with today's drama and him approaching me would've meant more of it.

I would've ran away at the mere sight of him.

Rolling my eyes,I replied,"Well what do you want?"

He glared at me as he said,"I'm going to ignore that eye roll as an apology to what I did.Anyways,what were you doing with Blake during lunch?"

I should really be careful with the eye rolling while talking to him.It's like the only thing I did.

Well,he's annoying,I don't blame myself.

"Um,I don't know eating?"I replied sarcastically.

Apparently,that was the wrong answer.With large steps,he backed me up against the wall.

"Look darling,I'm really trying here.However,that attitude is not going to work with me.Do something about it before I find a way to shut you up."

I could hear the hint of what he's suggesting through his tone.

"What if he's a good kisser though?" My conscience asked.

"Shutup,now's not the time."I told it.

Great.These guys are making me go crazy.I'm now having conversations with myself inside my head.

"I'd rather eat pickles before I would even think about kissing you,Noah."

I hated pickles.With every single bone in my body.