Look Into My Eyes

Chapter 1

Hi! My name is Karson James and my life is kindaaa all over the place. At the moment, I've been battling with I guess what you call an identity crisis? I'm finding it so hard to call myself straight even though...I am? But I'm not? Ugh. This gets SO annoying at times, especially when it's literally all your fucking family and friends talk about. Anywayssss....

It all started this morning when I woke up and realized it was the first day of school at St Laurence High School. I'm just starting my Junior year this year and honestly I'm not so sure how to feel about it. I swear it's the most toxic place to be on the planet if you ask me. If I had a choice I'd totally just go for band. Thank goodness that's what I have for first, third, and last period.

"KARSON DAWN JAMES WAKE YO ASS UP AND GET TO SCHOOL. YOURE LATE!!!"
Ahhhh shit I didn't realize it's already 7:30 and school just so happens to start at 8:00! So pretty much I rummage through my closet in hopes of finding a cute yet comfortable but also doesn't-look-like-I-was-late outfit. Aha! My favorite Bring Me The Horizon shirt and matching black sweatpants will do the trick! I scramble to get my black out converse on, brush my teeth, grab my keys and backpack, and head for the car. I sigh.

"Man I sure hope I don't look stupid compared to everyone else....this is the first day AND most people are gonna be all dressed up but that's just so ew fo me. oh well.....who the fuck am I talking to?" I say as I finally manage to start my car and drive to school. Hmm...I feel kind of funny. Something tells me the first day is gonna be....odd....like there's something coming. I kind of just ignored this feeling but little did I know, the moment I walked into that hell hole of a high school, my life as I know it would change forever.

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I walk into the band room the moment I get to school and the moment I step foot into the room, my eyes fall on this gorgeous....stunning....absolutely beautiful girl. I-I don't know how to describe this feeling...It's like she just completely lights up the room! She has beautiful, long brown hair with glistening freckles to match. An emerald green sweater with cute cuffed jeans and brown booties. Wow....who is this girl? It's like i'm just drowning in her pool of beauty and I can't take my eyes off of her. I realize I've been staring too long when we finally make eye contact. Shit. My heart sank.

"Uhhh Karson? You alright?" I snap back to reality when my bestest friend Elaine Henderson taps on my shoulder and looks at me with concerned eyes.

"Uh...y-yea! I'm great sis! Just got lost in thought hahahah. You know me, always spacing out." Damn I really didn't sound convincing. She must have thought so too because the look on her face really just screamed "you can't fool me, Karson". Duh. She's my best friend. She knows more about me than I know about me, and that's saying something.

"Girl, we both know you're lying. If I'm not crazy you were just making goo-goo eyes at our new music teacher. And you still think you're straight? Hah! Sis try again." Elaine says, looking me up and down.

"Shit..." I say under my breath, "She's the new music teacher?!" I'm basically panicking at this point. Yea, I know I might just not be straight but it won't be fun with this woman constantly reminding me every day in class. Ugh what am I going to do? The way she looked at me earlier with those ocean eyes is giving me chills...

"Uh yea, that's what I just said. This'll be fun to watch heh heh. I can tell she's making your knees go weak!" Elaine says bursting with laughter. She clenched her stomach just from laughing so hard and quickly stopped to realize that I had a look of horror on my face. Being the way she is, she laughed at me even more.

"Elaine what are you laughing for? What do you mean "goo-goo" eyes? I was just trying to figure out who she was since I've never seen her before." I say with the most serious face I could possibly make. I hope she believes me because that's definitely NOT the reason I was staring. haha.

Elaine finally stops laughing and lays a tiny hand on my shoulder.

"Fine sis, I understand. You know me, I'm always reading into things more than I should!" She says reassuringly.

"Girl, it's okay. We all do it sometimes. Let's go put our instruments away so we don't miss announcements before class."

"Oh yea! They're about to introduce her. Apparently her name is Miss Griffin. She gives me hella lesbian vibes. She's kinda cute not gonna lie" Elaine says, shutting her instrument locker and finding a seat. I sit next to her and all I can do is stare at Miss Griffin.

Man....she is cute. So cute...like....more than cute? She's stunning, a goddess, anything you could ever dream of. I swear...I can't make out this feeling. Is it love? Lust? Admiration? I don't know. I guess time will tell. It's only the first day.....what's the worst that can happen?