𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐌𝐘 𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐄 𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐍𝐄𝐃 𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃-Izuku x reader [Deku x reader]

𝚈𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚗𝚞𝚖𝚋𝚎𝚛☾︎ ᶜʰᵃᵖᵗᵉʳ 1

First of all please listen to the song it's very calm and relaxing <3 Atleast listen to the song before reading so that you can feel the chapter more^^
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You sat down on a wooden bench, taking a strand of cold silky h/c h/l hair in you're smooth rose tinted hand anxiously while feeling the cold breeze touch your bare neck. A slow shiver goes down as you sit up straight with no interest of the feeling on your back. It was a cold autumn day in October. The trees where calmy swaying to the rhythm of the wind blowing, it was quiet yet so calm. You had your phone on your lap slightly turned to the left while giving you a light humming to the relaxing music finding a beautiful way to your delicate ears. It felt very soothing, having the music go gently flowing into the grey coloured earphones and having the music for yourself. The unbothered and enjoy full eyes lazily rolled up to the sky that had a light blue shade to it, moving thick but light clouds where nicely placed as freckles on top of the blue ocean looking sky. Your body relished a sigh, it was out of relief, the sounds of birds singing and talking was noticed by your ears in the background. Another cold wind blew, your slightly tangled hair that had hugged each other parted lighty as the air came in between as a comb. Your glossy but chopped lips unconsciously started smiling for the peaceful feeling that greeted you, it was barely visible to any other that walked by. Those who came to this place had the same reason as me, to get an autograph and treasure it. You only had eyes for Izuky Midoriya, nothing else and nothing more. The way he always was bullied before but never gave up on his dream, the fact that he with pure joy and will wants to save other people, his smile brightened every lost soul and it still does, he brightens my soul you think to yourself while weakly laughing. But it got worse, the air suddenly stiffened and tears builded up inside your sensitive throat making a wall that ended up cutting your breathes shorter, a shiver was sent down your whole body as well as lumps of sadness entered in your stomach and you switched thoughts. You admired him for so long, the bitter sweet honesty echoed through your head and it pained you.
How would he ever notice you, ever change a word in his daily sentences towards you instead of someone else, think about you before going to bed or even dare to ask for your name? Right, that wouldn't happen.. You stood still on spot like a ghost as your hair swayed around in the wind, your hand clutched the thin fabric on your shirt with your aching heart while the other one held the phone down to your side with the music still playing. It felt as if the clouds had gotten darker and everything around you moved while you where frozen on the ground. The grasp on your shirt tightened and you felt like vibrations got through you, your once rough grasp loosened from the shakiness from your body. Your surroundings slowly faded around you as everything started to go blank, every thought of being worthless and being bullied for your looks repeated in and swirled in your brain and you started to feel a headache. Now everything around you was gone, only you were alive in your head as the others were blanked out of your vision. You couldn't feel the cold breeze hit no more, only the horrible thought that started making water build up in your dull eyes.
A tear fell down. With wide eyes.
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After some time of trying to catch your breath you finally calmed down and your surroundings was visible again. What once was peaceful was now ruined because of your stupid thoughts, you look around and you widen your eyes even more to see that some people were staring at you, some looked worried and some looked at you weirdly. A little girl was pointing at you while tugging a woman's jacked but the woman only eyed you with furrowed eyebrows. Your heart started rasing and you were scared that someone would be able to hear the beating heart from your chest. You fliched back to reality at the sudden cheering and looked up to see nobody staring at you anymore, they were shouting the heroes names and you heard a kid shout "Deku!" And with that you instantly felt the tightness in your throat leave. Your thoughts still stayed but new thoughts entered, you had a chance to see him for real. Your legs started moving on it's own while you got closer to the crowded area, you almost had to cover your ears from all the hype people couldn't shut up about. It's not like you didn't like it but the screams, shouts and yells where eating you up. That's when you spot him and your eyes glimmered while lighting up. You started running into the crowd with people groaning and yelling at you to move but you couldn't hear them. Izuku was standing on stage as he was holding a pen in this hands while scribbling on a piece of paper, soon after that he handed a girl with beautiful blue hair the paper and smiled and right then the girl squealed turning her back on him and running to a group of other girls while pointing towards the awkward looking guy. He scratched the back of his neck and smiling. You understood how nervous he must of felt with a long line with people right in front of him never leaving their eyes off him. Without thinking you bumped into a guy infront of you and yelped. He was on the ground and people from the line turned their heads at you two. "What the hell are you doing?!" He yelled directed towards you, you felt your heart skip a beat and your legs almost giving up on you. Everyone was staring at you, but nothing came out upon your wiggling mouth and you stood frozen on spot. At that moment people were glaring at you for not apologising as you tried to hold back the tears swelling up in your eyes once again. If you opened your mouth trying to speak the tears would definitely break out. You took a deep breath as you shakily stretched out your hand to him and opening your mouth while nervously glancing at the ground. "I..I- I'm... S-..sorr..y" a stuttering mess was let out as a whisper but it was because of the tears stuck in your throat. Silence. Everyone stood still and your eyes was still looking down at the ground, you closed your eyes for a few seconds waiting to be scolded yet again but nothing was heard. You hesitantly open one of your eyes to see that he completely rejected your offer while smacking your hand away. Your body stiffened and you quickly straighten your back checking to see if anyone was looking, and they were. Your eyes widen more at the sight but then wonders of to the ground half closed as you deeply breath out. "...S-..orry.."