Feelings

Before the start

Why do I have to wait for someone to accept me for who I am?
Hell I am gonna wait.
People say:
Be elegant
Be beautiful but have a brain

They said: Have plans for the future I'm something that you like
But be realistic

Search a man who will don't cheat on you, but they want
A men who have status or money
No ugly it's have to be handsome because they start talking

A woman who doesn't marry and follows her dream, it's a stupid girl with a stupid dream

A man who never had a girlfriend is gay
Same for a girl,

Men who likes men is a faggot and dishonor for the family

Girl who like girls "It's a joke"

People who are sad "it's nothing" they said

People who died for suicide "they are weak"
"Good for nothing"

Why? Why it's have to be like that? We are humans aren't we?

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When I was little in 3 grade I had my first confession from a boy who was in 6 grade
Of course I said no, but the girls were jealous for that

That was the start of everything
My cousin which has the same age as me
She start acting different, distant herself from me
Little by little I didn't had friends
Obviously I don't socialize much with the people
So I just had three kids who had the same problems as me, so we became friends
Let's name them:
Lila,Tom & Henry

"Lila was the girl who was really friendly but had "Lice" in the hair, but I really didn't care
Because she was nice with me

"Tom" was this guy who were "fat" for the other kids, but he wasn't that fat, and he was sweet with me, almost like a best friend

"Henry" "so feminine like a girl" oh but eh was cute and his skin like porcelain, just beautiful and perfect, and very friendly with me

Me, "Fat" "Ugly" girl who had always bread in the hair, of course unpopular too, my brother they were: Smart, Beautiful & Popular with everybody
But something was wrong with me cuz I didn't had any of those things

The time just was a hell for me, I just wanted to be in my room trying to not cry and feel ashamed of me or my body which obviously I fail every single day
The girls where just skinny, perfects eyebrows with phones and that shit stuff

Of course when you are in school you are just trying to survive

The bullying is get, and the look in theirs eyes was.... something that I will never forget
That was until 6 grade

7 & 8 grade pass very quickly but i didn't have friends there

9 grade I make three best friends

Let's call them:
"Claire" "Sophie" & "Linda"
We where three at first, it's was like a dream come true to me, I never had best friends so it's was...beautiful
Photos, laughing and smiles never stop when we were together
Well everything dure long. I made friends with Linda's crush, and since Claire and  I didn't have one class  which match that eh didn't have class in that hour we sat in a corner and start chatting and laughing like we were friends forever, I can say it's was very funny.
Linda and her friend saw us but her friend say something to her and Linda was mad as hell and walk away

I didn't know what was going to happen next....