The Culture Of Love

CHAPTER THREE : DISCOVERY

I was left completely speecheless. He just said that. And I know you know how you make me feel already, Jing-ya. I wished you would've continued what you were doing but I suppose you're one of those people who like to do things halfway. I see you now. Don't think I'm going to let you have your way with me though. I'm not that naive to be so easily manipulated.

- Really ? I would like to see that, Hae-ya.

Puffing out my cheeks, I turned my back to him, pouting like a child. He chuckled, I didn't know I was funny. His laugh is nice...pleasant to the ear, quite genuine too. I wonder if he fakes smiles a lot when he meets up with business partners.

- Thank you again for the compliment. I think you'll have to forget about thinking when you're with me. Just try to be bold with me, I like it.

- Oh will you stop already ! Isn't there a switch off button anywhere on you ?

I held him firmly by his shoulders, determined to examine him thoroughly even if it means being a creep. I have to know the truth. And if he won't tell me, I'll look for it myself !

I started touching him, even if it was more like feeling his body up like a pervert. Starting from up to down, like the security people do at the airport to check if you have anything potentialy dangerous hidden on your body. I always felt uncomfortable when they did that. That's also one of the reasons why it's interesting to do this to someone like him. My hands were wandering all over his body, it felt weird considering I had cold hands and his body was really warm. I kind of wanted to hug him again just because of the warmth he emanated. He was like a big teddy bear you could hug all day long.

I may have forgotten about my aim in the first place.

- Did you find it ? Or are you going to proceed on "molesting me like a pervert" ? Honestly, I don't mind either way.

- Yeah, no. I didn't find it. And by the way, why do you keep on calling me Hae-ya ?

- Isn't that your name ?

- Silly, I'm older than you. Knowing that, from now on, you ought to treat me with respect and not make fun of me in any way. I'll make you pay Jing-ya for what you did to my poor innocent self !

- Wow, you sound like Ahn hyung.

I got fired up quickly. I couldn't stand being compared to someone like him. Especially when we had litteraly nothing in common.

- NO ! Everyone but this asshole ! Don't you dare compare me to this jerk ! Or I swear to God I will-

- Or else what ? Are you going to hit me ? Like how my parents hit me back when I was only seven years old ? Are you going to lash out your frustrations on me to show that you're right ? That I don't deserve to voice out my opinion ? So I should just keep my mouth shut then, and everything will be alright for me ? Is that how you are going to treat me ? Please...don't let me suffer from the same pain I've been living with silently for years...

What is he saying... Did I hurt him ? Oh no, I hope I didn't bring out a painful memory. I feel bad already. What should I do to make him feel better ? But it's not like I meant to say that ! I didn't think he would take that to heart... I wasn't even saying anything hurtful or bad ! I don't know, I don't know, I don't know ! What if he starts crying out of nowhere ? Or is he going to fight back ?

- I'm really sorry, I didn't meant one bit of what I said. I don't care if you compare me to Yi Ahn after all I don't know much about him and just assumed he was an asshole because of how he treated me at our first meeting yesterday. If he wasn't that rude and arrogant, maybe we could've been friends or at least not ennemies you know ? ....I don't know what I'm saying anymore. Just know that I actually care about others' feelings and don't wish any harm or pain to anybody I just-