The day I lost you

Chapter 3

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Giotto's P.O.V

1 week after Christmas, did I only start to visit him again because when I see him or even get close to him my brain automatically recalls the night on Christmas Eve and that made me uneasy, irritated and to my surprise when I left after school thinking about it, leads me straight to my house without my knowledge, but today was distinct since I eventually collected all the determination I have within me and entered the room, that I wasn't able to enter for the past few days.

But what greeted me was an utter shock, since today, Tsuna was doing that one Japanese culture, wherein he was groveling in front of me...

We were the only ones inside the room, he inspected.

He was anxious, He somehow guessed that something bad was going to happen now, and he won't like it one bit.

"Wh-what are you doing tsuna?" He asked stuttering with an awkward smile, ogling at him...

While he was waiting for the brunette's reply he couldn't help but worry,

'Did he remember?

about the accident...

Will he hate me?...

Leave me?

Or Ignore me for the rest of my life?

Somehow... I... I don't like that idea...'

He was brought back to reality when Tsunayoshi profusely yelled looking up at me teary-eyed with quivering lips.

"Giotto-san... I'm sorry!!! I did something wrong to you! I'm so sorry!"

Therefore Tsunayoshi wailed like no tomorrow while I crouched in front of him for a hug confused about why he was sobbing, to comfort him, I carried him back to the bed bridal style occasionally rubbing his back in circles, and that calmed him down, tsuna simply affixed his arms to my neck, his head safely secured in the crook of my neck,

'He smells nice'

After shushing him and soothing him like a child, I saw him all flustered with cherry tomato cheeks, it seems he was embarrassed about his display moments ago, I chuckled internally, seated beside him on the bed, while outside I was flashing him a smile.

"A-ano..." Tsuna started, staring at me blushing.

Hence I similarly gazed my eyes at him "Yes, What is it Tsunayoshi?"

"I'm sorry..."

*Sigh* 'He's apologizing again... But why tho? He didn't do anything bad to me in any way
Is this about his pal's behavior? I can understand that but, this talk seems a little bit deep so it can't be that, Or is this about Kyoko? Is he telling me that they're not in a relationship and it was all a fib?'

After confident investigations, I was about to tell him that it was trivial but it seems he wasn't done talking, I completely misread what he was supposed to say in that crisis.

"I read my diary, Giotto..."

I gradually, scarcely broadened my eyes at that moment I heard him say, and the feeling of guilt and remorse instantly crept into my beating heart, like a raging fire that never seems to stop at its track,

I was troubled, fearing that he remembered that awful day, that I strived to forget every day but to no avail, it came every night in my dreams playing ever so gracefully, like a written script for a play, the foolish words I screamed, always seems to resume in an ever ending loop, the goofy smile that I last saw that day I came to miss to this day haunts me, and the sadness in his eyes seems to hold much greater sorrow from within than what was shown outside while the little but meticulous gestures in school I realized that it was all for me... I came to understand late that he genuinely cared for me,