Creation and destruction

In light there is always darkness

Marinetts diary POV:

When I was a little girl my mother would tell me story's of yin and yang, push and pull, good and evil, light and dark. She told me of their never ending balance. How one could not exist without the other. They were forever bound together, their souls intertwined in a never ending dance. "Even when light covers the earth darkness is waiting in the shadows" she would tell me. I always believed light would prevail good would always win. But recently it feels like I'm being taken over my darkness. My partner is reckless and strong. He chases after my heart unending but I continue to break his. I cannot except his love because I have one of my own. Adrian agrest. He's a model, son of a designer and an actor. His eyes are green like most beautiful trees in spring. His hair sparkles like the stars. His smile is intoxicating and it could melt any girl heart. Too bad I'm one of those girls. I can't even speak around him why can't I just give up, why is it so hard, it's been a year in a half since I met and fell in love with him. A year since I've been in love with someone who calls me a good friend. And at this point I wonder if.... do I really love him anymore.....or just the idea of getting what I've been after for so long.

It's 11:42. I should be getting to sleep, I have a test tomorrow then alya and nino are coming for a sleepover. They said they might bring a friend. I'm thinking julika because her girlfriend rose is in America with her family for a week.