Our KISSING Game [✔️]

Don't Give Up

For the next few weeks, they interacted as if nothing happened between them at the beach.

Instead, they have been preoccupied with preparing for yet another fan meeting. It's a big one too since there will be other kuu-jin couples making their appearance with KristSingto.

All these late night practices meant that the two men would spend a lot of time together.

In some tenderer moments, one head would rest on the other's shoulder or lap, and they could fall into a comfortable silence where just the two of them existed. Both would be physically and mentally exhausted, but together, they could find a moment's rest. Together, they could just be, without the need to put a label on it.

Both knew they could be more.

But should they be more?

Would their gain be worth the risk?

They could lose everything their hard work has brought them.

What if it ultimately led them to losing each other completely?

If they stay as they are, Krist can still be the closest person to his P'Sing. Maybe he could be satisfied with just that.

Right now, his phi had his head on Krist's thigh. Soft, even breaths signaling to Krist that the older man had fallen asleep.

Like so many times before, Krist brushed his fingers through thick hair, relishing the way it felt between his fingertips.

Could they not be like this in the future, if they were not more?

Would he one day be resting his head on someone else?

Would someone else be seeing this face, sweet and handsome, and feeling like they had everything they ever needed in that moment?

Krist really didn't know what to do.

He didn't want to give up what he does have with Singto.

But he also doesn't know what does "more" mean for the two of them. He never even expected that he would want more of his senior.

Krist bent forward to press a soft kiss on the other man's cheek. With a sigh, he leaned back against the wall and closed his eyes.  "P'Singtuan. What should I do?"

I don't know Kit...

Saddened, the older man kept his eyes and mouth shut, hoping his nong would have the answer for him soon.

Then this happened. This terrible scene unfolding before him right now.

They practiced it during rehearsal already but why was it causing him to choke up now?

The act of Singto pushing him away.

The idea that they would not be together.

It was too much for Krist.

Stuck between Singto and Godt, Krist couldn't help but break down crying, angry and distressed.

As he watched the older man sing through his tear filled eyes, Krist saw nothing that gave away the other man's feelings. He was perfectly capable of keeping this act going and after realizing that, Krist didn't even want to bother holding his tears back anymore, shutting his eyes and hoping this performance would end soon.

The last few notes were sung, and just in time because Krist was unable to stop his overflow of emotions. A final chord was struck and finally, the lights dimmed.

Krist hurried off stage before anyone (namely the one who was the source of his tears) could stop to question or comfort him.

He didn't want any of that right now. He just wanted to finish the fan meeting and go home.