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Epiphany

Lea

"I had enough of you! Please let me go. I can't take this anymore. You are hurting me again." I said to him... I will not allow him to hurt me any longer.

Seeing my boyfriend of 5 years doing 'it' with a girl on his bed is too much for me.  He said he was busy doing some work at his office. So I wanted to surprise him once he is back from the office so I went to his place. I used to do that just to make him happy and lessen his stress from time to time. But I have never expected to see his cheating with my own 2 eyes. 😭

My face is covered with tears of hurt and frustrations.

I left his place with a heavy heart but relieved at the same time. Heavy because it has been too long since I was single. Relieved because finally I know this is the best for me.

I need to start do things for myself. I need to love myself. Me, my body, my soul needed this! I have been giving myself to others endlessly. Up to a point I neglected my own feelings, my needs to be loved, the way I have ever imagined. 😪

I took a bus ride home, when suddenly it was raining heavily along the route. Gazing out of the bus window, I am still crying on the inside, but supressing it since I m still in the public.

It took about 30 minutes to reach my  place. It is still raining heavily. With no umbrella with me, I braved through the pouring rain. Suddenly, my tears started gushing out again from my eyes. My heart felt too hurt like it was ripped apart. Why is this so hurtful to me? I should feel grateful of it because of this, I finally have the reason to move on and get the life I wanted...