call me by your name.🪐

im fine...

"isnt weird that starr just posted that?" anthony asked looking at blake "yeah i find it very weird. we need to ask her when she comes home." blake said. right then starr walked in not even blinking or looking around just straight ahead of her.
"hey starr , i missed you." anthony said hugging the girl. she didn't hug back. after he let go of her blake took his turn and the same happened and walked straight to her room and closed the door.
she closed her windows and curtains to make it dark and crept in between all the blankets and fell asleep not bothering changing her clothes.

"starr is back but this time she its bad like real bad! she felt empty and numb." blake told the 5 other boys who just got back from canes w supper. "maybe i should just check up on her just to see if she would wanna come down." bryce said worrying.

"hey starr , its me bryce" he said as walked in and saw the dark room before he closed the door the other boys walked in. starr didn't move an inch she woke up when bryce walked. josh switched on the lights and they saw how horrible she looked. her face was pale w mascara stains downs her face. they were shocked at how bad she looked but couldn't help but wonder what happened. she got up ignored the boys went to the bathroom after a while she came out w the boys still in her room and went back in the position was sleeping. she didn't know what to say to them but just look at the dark curtains.

"starr could you please tell us what happened?" quinton asked w a concerned face."could you please all leave i wanna sleep." she stated not asking w her raspy voice they all nodded and smiled then left.

"im such a fuck up! , why couldn't i tell that i was raped for 3 hours by three different men!"

"i am so afraid of what they might say or do!😭"

"im scared!"

"i was R A P E D!"

"R A P E D!"

she yelled into the phone and before she could finish Bryce said "you were raped?"
"please leave." she said politely closing the balcony door leaving the boys inside.

"look im fucking done explaining to you why i didnt show up yesterday fuck off!" and she put the phone down.

"why the fuck didn't you tell me starr! we dont keep secrets especially not one like this!" bryce shouted. starr looked at bryce and said "how bryce how! you tell me! how was i supposed to tell you?! hi bryce hi boys uhmm i was raped by three different men for 3 hours and fine? my vaginal cords are damaged. i feel dirty dont worry about me im fine oh yes and i got you tickets for south africa because im going to see my cousin!" is that how huh! you dont know what it feels like!😭" "you right i dont know how it feels but i could have supported you! the world doesn't revolve around you starr!" he shouted. "if you haven't been all about addison this addison that then i would have told you but you barely make time for me 😂 it's funny how you switch up like donald trumps debates but you know what im fucking done begging you to stay in my life. if you wanna leave then by all means go ahead but trust me the minute you leave dont expect to come back because im a cold mother fucker that you just awoken." she stated as she looked into his eyes. "you are nothing but a piece ..." "dont you dare finish that sentence." she said w tears in her eyes.
"you know what why dont you just leave this house , it was better before sluts like you came." w that he left. all the boys looked at her and she pointed to the door and they left.

she packed everything up including the stuff she brought for the room. she didn't bother leaving a note and left picking the rest of her stuff the next day.

"look starr..." the boys started " save it " was all she said and after that they never heard from her untill 8 months later....