I can't believe it had lasted this long. I know what emotions feel like and yet why does it always feel like I'm drowning? I know I have things to do, to finish. But motivation lacks and I just sit here, angrily tapping on the keyboard. Images invade my mind every night. How come I can dream so clearly now? Every time I reach out they just shove me back down the stairs and it seems impossible. People always say don't give up, but what's so wrong with giving up? We are allowed to be weak, we are allowed to give up. Come back to it some other day or just abandon it. Maybe someday you'll see or find something batter and try more on that instead. Why aren't we allowed to say I Don't Know? If we really don't know is that our fault? For not paying attention? For not listening? That's complete bullshit and everyone knows it. What will they do? Kick me out of life? We cannot keep grasping at straws here. Life really cannot be this hard...There has to be a better way. Yeah, I am going to 'Give Up', but it's for my sake and no one else's. I'm allowed to say 'I don't know'. I have to be able to look at myself and be satisfied and I'm not gonna do anything for the approval of others, and neither should you. Who is to say you cant literally do anything? No one is stopping you, but you. Just do it. Stop saying it won't work out. You never know unless you actually try it. Things can get worse, but never unfixable. That just won't happen. You just have to believe you can fix your situation because you fucking can. End of story. No arguments this time.
