Only time can tell

Prologue:

When we were done eating we went back to the event while we were walking back I couldn't stop thinking about her, how is she, is she still mad at me, why did I have to do that, why did I have to let her go, why do I have to pretend I don't care anymore, when I'm just lying to myself on how much I miss her

I couldn't focus at all, I was to deep in my mind na nakalimutan ko na ang reality, I didn't notice that my tears were falling from my face I came back to reality when my friend talked "dude are you okay? bakit ka umiiyak may problema ka ba, pwede mo naman sabihin. bigla kami napahinto sa paglakad "yeah dude okay lang ako.. ayun ang sabi ko kahit alam ko sa sarili ko hindi "okay dude ayun ang sabi mo ah. reply niya tumuloy nalang kami sa paglakad pagbalik namin sa event dumeretso ako sa pwesto ng pamilya ko binigay ko and pinapabili nila nawala ang focus ko ng biglang dumaan sa gilid ng dad ko deretso lang ang lakad niya walang tingin di ko mapansin kung sino pero bat ang sakit sa pakaramdam ng naramdaman ko kahit saglit ko lang siya nakita bigla ako nawala sa focus ng bigla ako tinawag ng ate ko "uy JS paabot ng fries.. binigay ko yung fries pero di ko parin maalis sa pakaramdam na yun na parang bigla ako nagsisi...

tinawag alet ako ng mga kaibigan ko para mag palamig sa ac bigla kami doon pumunta kasama namin ang mga bata nakipag laro kami habang nag uusap "dude tanong ko lang bakit parang wala ka sa mood? may problema ka ba kasi mas tahimik kana kesa dati.. ayun sabi niya inangat ko lang parehas na balikat ko sa kanya I had no energy to say a word so he just said okay and continued to play with the kids while I just used my phone and scrolled on facebook but being there I keep feeling emotions and keep remembering memories that made me smile and sad inside I was so confused so I said to myself

"why do I keep feeling this emotions"
"I did what I did"
"I did it for her but why does it hurt so much"
"did I make a mistake for letting her go"
 "did I do the right thing"
"even when I still love her"

I was so lost in my mind that kept me silent for so long  no one notice cause they thought I was looking at my phone I came back to one of the kids ask me to play so we played with colors palagi siya nag kukulay ng trees at bahay habang ako patuloy sa pag gawa ng logo ko Z or JS minsan dahil sa nickname ko umabot kami mga 40 mins sa drawing bumalik muna ako sa pwesto ko pero pag ka balik ko bigla agad ako nautusan itapon ang basura kaya ayun deretso nanaman kung saan ako galing malapit sa ac room and trashcan at bathroom pagtapon ko di ko napansin na may butas ang basura kaya natapunan ako ng sauce dumeretso na ako ng bathroom para hugasan pag pasok ko may nadidinig akong voice "baket parang familiar" I said to myself the voice was beautiful and the person was singing I told myself "I know this voice" It was her, that's why it was so familiar, it was the voice of my love, the voice that touch my heart, "it was Luna I know it for sure" I just kept on standing there listening to her voice then I heard her cry and said "you promise to stay, you said you wouldn't leave me, you promise you wouldn't hurt me, you said you love me" she thought I wasn't there but I heard it all so said to myself 

"I'm sorry I broke our promises"
"I did love you that's why I had to let you go"
"I loved you Luna"
"that will never change"

I heard the other door open and knew she left while I was there laying back on the wall saying

"I made a mistake to let you go Luna"