awkward me

Part 1

here I am again... On my way to school ... Just to get made fun of for the way the i dress. Today I am wearing a scull shirt with black baggy jeans with my nails black. I guess you can call me a goth.

the bus is the worst transportation. I mean I got the nose picking bobby in front of me Nancy the nerd behind me and of course my best friend who is completely gay. His name is James. He is the most skinny and the most girly boy I have ever met. But the only good part of the bus is the back because right behind the nerd Nancy is the hottest boy I have ever seen. jack Gibson. the guy with a flawless face and works out every Saturday. But even though I kinda like him... I don't like him at all.

At 8:46 we always park to get to school. But today, we got there at 8:43 so that means 3 extra minutes of bus time. Usually I just take my phone and listen to the most annoying song "uptown funk" But James said " Hey Natalie I'm gonna start calling you nat or Nattie or whatever because those names are so adorbs." I started with a sneaky yet annoyed laugh " you are almost to gay to function...and just call me Natalie." " you know nat-" "shut up " "okay the boring name Natalie um...how's life?" He asked this question every month and every time I answered the same thing. " eh, life could be better."

First period over with , second done and now I'm third with jack. I don't know if he considers me a stocker or something but I stare at him. All day in that class. But that is aloud... Right? The bell rings at the same time as always. I walk out and see James with his boyfriend Mack and there staring at each other like they are the the one for each other. Also with them is a girl name Janice. She is straight and nice but nice but never talk to her and when I do I am asking if I can see the math homework. They all walk up to me and say " hey nat-" I interrupt "NATALIE!!!" He says " whatever ok u busy tonight. Because if you aren't then you are invited to go to the club with us." "Um were 17 not 21 so keep dreaming" he held up a fake ID and so does Janice and Mack. " ok fine mine is in my pocket-" I get rudely interrupted by James "OMG you can go !!! " I thought and then said " I never said I was going but since you are so flipping desperate or whatever you are I .... Um .... FINE" " ok meet me at the gas station in 2 hours." And that is exactly what i did

I dressed up in a tight black skirt black shirts black mascara eyeliner and black nails. Again you can just call me a goth. I get out of my black mini car and wait at the gas station. " why here to meet" I asked Janice " I guess Mack is buying some cigarettes and getting a 4 pack of lime bud light ." first thought was were not 21 And my second thought was why lime flavor? " ok well I call one becuz I have had a crappy day." ( even though I was noticing I'm 17 not 21)

We drove to the club and partied from 9 to 2 and have the time I was listening to "uptown funk " cuz since we all know I have absolutely no life .but Janice walked up to me and said " What up wit you ? How come you not be partying?" DRUNK. She was completely out of it . And I replied " becuz I don't want someone to hold up 5 fingers and I say it is 592." She left me with some other guy.
Then I left. I mean me at a club ... No. But then the guy says show me your ID again and I handed it to him. I started to leave but then he asked me how old are you and I said "uh 22 " he replied "your ID says that you should now be 25." Oh great the way to end the most crappy day. " so then to cut the crappy stuff out now I am in the slammer. For a week. A whole week. I'm dead. My parent will kill me.and yes I said parent my mom died.

2 days pass and then jake walks in. All I can think is " what am I gonna do if he sees me?????" All I can hear is "hey dad..... Guess what....... This really cute girl .......In my third period class"
My mind: " WHAT????????? ITS ME WAIT WHAT AM I THINKING HE DONT LIKE ME ITS PROBALLY JULIE" Then the cop lets me out. I said looked at him blankly and he said " next time it's a long time in here " I nodded and left. Trying to hide from jake. I walk by and he spots me and just stares and I walk out. I drive home get to the bathroom dye my hair blacker.
I wake up and I get ready for school to get made fun of for what I wear. Now I am wearing a white shirt with baggy black jeans with my nails painted black. I get on the bus and James sits and looks at me " where and what happened to you ?" He sounded shocked " I got caught and I was in jail for 2 days." "Wow lucky me I didnt get caught."

All over again first period second and then third, I didn't stare at jake but from the corner of my eye I saw him staring at me. That period felt like one zillion hours but finally the bell rang. I walked straight past the group. I was so mad at them. I'm just gonna forget the world.becuz honestly I'm hating it right now I mean the slammer , jake , school what else can go wrong

My part 2 will be coming soon xoxo ~~~~halle 💕💕