Volume 2

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…How will  someone  who  claims to  be  up  there  in heaven  speak  to us here  on  earth? That  was it.  How can  He speak  to me?  This same guy  who has had a crush  on a quarter  of the girls in  my set?  Or  a guy who is an addicted masturbator?  Oh,  you  are surprised?  A pastor’s  son jerking  off  the life out  of his mind?  Well, yeah.  Here is  my  story. A couple  of years  ago,  I  was binge watching videos on  YouTube when I  came across a video that  aroused me sexually.  Yeah, it  was the first  time  I  had ever  experienced  such  as a  teenager.  Elated about  the fact  that  my  body  actually responded to the stimulation set off  by the video which is something  I  had always yearned to experience, I decided to  forge ahead.  I  went ahead  and watched different similar videos and then, on the bed I  was, right  there  where  Jesus was looking  at  me  from above, I felt  a slightly warm  liquid escape my  manhood.  Oh the joy!  I was finally a man!   Little did  I  know that  I  had opened the door  to depression and frustration which till  now, has kept  me in bondage.
Well, I left  school  immediately  after  classes were  over,  as I  got home, I entered into my duvet, closed my  eyes  and began  wondering when all  of these  will  be over.  I  thought  about  the stories my mom  had told  me; how it  took  two  days for  me to come  into this  world.  “You were one  big lump of a  child,” she had said.  She always  added the fact that  I  was very dark  as a  child anytime she  repeated  that  story.  
I  thought  about  how hard it  was for  me  to accept  my  body the way it  was or  still  is.  Yeah, I’m  still  very dark.  I  also thought  of how much I had been  made a laughing  stock  for  being  ‘so  black’  particularly in my  sophomore  year in  high  school, how I  had gotten  the nickname ‘Duduyemi’ or  ‘Dudulabi.’ I remembered how I had  mistakenly told my friend about  my  first  crush  who later  went ahead  to tell  the girl  that  I liked her  and  wanted to date her.  I  remembered how she had approached me on  the main street of  our  school with all  her  friends.   “Is it  true that  you said you want  to date me?”  she had  asked.  I was lost.  For  a split  second,  I  tried to  push  myself  out  of the perplexity that  gripped me  all  of a  sudden.  When it  seemed  like I  was taking forever  to give  a  response  to her  question, I  eventually was pushed out from  my  little slumber  by the  wave  of pain that  struck  my  face  twice. I still  had not  found  a solution to my confusion till  I  drifted away from the girl’s face  to a  spot, only to see  my  friend  watching from  a distance and giggling  for what  seemed to be like forever.  Then and there  did it dawn on me that  I  had confided in a  snitch. It  took another  couple of slaps from  the girl  to wake  me totally from  my  state of sudden misery. “Are you in any  way hard of hearing?” she spat.  “I’m  so sorry  Pauline;  I  just  said it  as a  joke to  my  friend.  It  will never  repeat  itself,” I  had managed to utter.  “It  better  not.  And please, try using a  bleaching cream or  something, you look  like  you were  given birth to by the  darkest  of apes,” she  replied and  walked away  with her ‘army  of  knights’.  I  was thrown immediately into a state  of excruciating distress.  The left  side of my  face felt  sore. May jaws felt  like they’d  just been used in  crushing  hard metal.  I  cried that  day like a child that  had just  lost  his parents.
So  that  was  how  I  got  those  nicknames.  At  a  time,  I  got  angry  at every  single  person  that  called  me  any  of  those  names  but  after  the whole  three  hundred  and  thirty-five  of  us  in  our  set  started  calling  me ‘Duduyemi  or  Dudulabi,’  I  had  to  learn  to  cope  with  it.  I  couldn’t possibly  hold grudges against  the whole of my  set now,  or  can  you?   Turning  to  my  left  side,  I  put  out  the  lampshade  on  my  bedside and  drifted off  into sleep.   That  night,  in  my  dream,  there  was  this  man  that  came  to  sit beside  me  while  I  was  in  class.  The  countenance  of  His  face  shone bright  like  the  headlamps  of  a  Canadian  car.  I  asked  Him  how  that  was so  and  He  said  it  was  so  because  He  is  the  bright  and  morning  star.  He held  my  hand  and  said,  “Come  Dele,  let  me  set  you  free  from  yourself. Let  me  set  you  apart  into  pieces  and  remold  you.”  As  I  opened  my mouth  to  utter  a  reply,  I  heard  a  thud  and  at  the  same  time,  felt  a  sharp pain  on  my  buttocks.  I  woke  up  and  met  myself  on  the  floor.  I  had rolled from the bed to the floor.   Gazing  at  my  table  clock, the time  read  past  six  in  the morning.  It  was a Saturday.  And  it  was time  for devotion.  My  dad talked  about  we  casting our cares upon  Jesus and  I,  who has  never  for  once  been interested in morning  devotions  began to have this strange affinity for  the whole devotion.  I  usually preferred  pressing  my  phone to listening  to any of the  short sermons.  There  was a  day  I  was hooked up  to  a pornographic site  during devotion  and when  my  dad  asked  what  I  was  doing,  I  told him  I  was searching for  the NLT version of our  memory  verse online.   This  morning  was  a different  one  for  me  as  my  dad  explained what  Jesus  said in  Matthew  11:28  which says:
“Come  to  me,  all  you  who  are  weary  and  carry  heavy  burdens,  and  I  will give you  rest.” He further  explained  that  this same Jesus has a name  that  is far above  every other  name  using  Philippians 2:10  which says: “That  at  the  name  of Jesus,  every  knee  will  bow,  in  heaven  and  on  earth and under  the  earth,  and that every  tongue  should  confess  that Jesus Christ  is  Lord,  to the  glory of  GOD the  Father.” The  statement the  man in my  dream  made  kept  popping  up in my subconscious from  time  to time;   “Come  Dele,  let  me set  you  free  from  yourself.  Let  me set  you  apart  into pieces and  remold  you.” How  can  one be set  free  from oneself?  I  just  couldn’t  understand.   I  was back  in  my  room  and  something  triggered me  to  pick  up  my  Bible and  read it.  It  was very  dusty as  I  hadn’t  touched it  since forever.  As  I was about  dusting  my  Bible to read,  my  phone  beeped.  It  was a message from  Bayo,  a friend from  the humanities  department  at school.   “Pauline  said  a  ‘Yes’  to  Richard,  call  me ASAP>>>,”    it  read. To be  continued…

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