𝒜 𝒞𝒽𝒶𝓃𝑔𝑒 𝐹𝑜𝓇 𝐻𝑒𝒶𝓇𝓉

Why do a girl gets impair by both somatic and cerebral agony?

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On my way to the changing room, I heard*...... I heard soft moans coming from a certain room. I decided to go and let who so ever enjoy her private moments but my curious mind didn't let me to do so. It's always there to cross ways with what I plan to do and switch my path to what it wants me to do.

I slightly twisted the knob and peeped my head inside the little space only to be encountered by a familiar face - 'Seo-jun' - It was expected from him. It was disgusting to even think to an extent that this boy would ever change.
"He's with another girl today and again he is cheating on my friend and I cannot do anything... I can only stand still and watch what he is doing." My heart screamed the words like- " GO and PUNCH this fuckin' bastard on his fuckin' face, Tipsy";
but my mind still opposed like it always does- "NO, Tipsy calm down. Don't make a wrong move." I slowly calmed my burning rage inside me and decided to rush to my desired place before anyone even watches me.

As I stepped inside the room, my eyes were exposed to a shirtless Biehyung. I quickly placed my hands on my eyes and prevented the scene to enter my vision any further.

"OMG- what the fuck are you doing here?" He said crossing his arms over his chest in attempt to cover his naked front.

"I don't mean to...........", I  said bowing down continuously.

"Hey, it's okk", he said wearing his shirt. I am dressed now- so, why are you here?....

"I" ----- I gulped my words, battling with myself whether I should tell him or not.

"You?" He questioned pointing his index finger towards me - "What?"

"I..…I need to show you something" I urged.

"Show then"... I nodded him and dragged him to the room where Seojun was continuing his makeout session.

"See" I yelled and he peeped into the room and snapped his head back in a fast pace, cursing out and pulling me with him to somewhere far from the room.

"Fuck, It's Seojun and he's..........
I am sorry, you saw this. He's just......... this......I---"

"Seriously you are giving me explanation." You should mere go, teach your friend to not to play with girl's life,

"Why me? How could I tell Seojun this?"
"Ohh Yeah!!! How can I forget you belong to the same game. How will you say this when you too do this!" I yelled as I could not get hold on my anger.

"What do you mean I do this. Take that back." He squeaked using a higher voice cum command.
"I won't", I shot glares at him.

"Take this back - I said" he stepped closer with every words, creating an ackword yet intimidating sorrounding to envelope us. With every steps he took I moved back too untill I was trapped inside his arms.

"You are t-t-terrifying me Bie- Biehyung" He looked straight into my eyes as if torturing my soul. Water filled my eyes the same way as the emotions were bubbling inside me. My words pierced like arrow to his heart, which softened his harshself.

"I-I don't want to terrify you. I---I just don't know what to do." He said inching a little close to my figure. As he laid his forehead on line and realised a small crystal drop from his eyes.

" I don't want-want to terrify you, trust me, my love." Beads of clear liquid cascaded from his eyes dripping down to my cheek as a result of our connected forehead and he- being taller than me.

I didn't wanted to cry, I did not wanted him to see me like this- weak, fragile, futile. I won't let my gaurd down. I won't fall in love again- I promised to my self and I'll go along with it.

"Bie-hyung, move away , I need to go." I said sounding ruthless as I had rejected all the lovable emotions that was drenching into my mind. I won't fall in love again-never.
"All boys are like this." What if Biehyung is not! "No, he is the same."what if not! It was like my conscience and fiend are fighting and none of them are not coming to a conclusion.

"Please love, don't go, don't leave me alone." No pleading Biehyung, no. You are making hard for me to leave you like this. I can't love, not again, anyone and infront of me.
I am not meant to be loved. You deserve better. I am not a right choice. I am a darkness and you are a  sunshine, no, the sun itself and the sun must be sorrounded with a sunshine that completes it, not with darkness, never.

"Biehyung, I said move away just let me go." My emotions were enlarged like wires like an electronic motor box if you pull one wire it gets even more tangled and one more strong pull and it breaks. Breaks....such a familiar word for me.

I have been broken numerous times and no one has been picked my piece and joined them. --No-----One. It's only me who does it everytime. Like a remanufacturable doll, break and join, break and join-- numerous time you want and if you connect the wire of your life with me, it will get tangled too. Trust me, I am a mess, I am a loser. Biehyung, which you are not and I won't let you be.

"I won't, first answer me. Do you like me?" He questioned wiping the drop that was hanging on his cheeks, the others were dried up. His eyes reflected hopes, trust,tender, warmth and most importantly love. He's eyes never left mine. He's were a ball of fire like I said the sun itself and mine dark, obscuring like hideous night.
"The night that holds the unbearable pain, endless suffering, pounds of troubles and significantly emptiness." A sun never meets night. It can't survive with the darkness. You can lighten my world but I will,... mere darken your world and I won't do so. I won't be selfish. No......No..... I can't.

"No, I don't, satisfied, now let me go." I yelled with eyes shadowed with no emotions and I pushed his form- that I assumed was broke - everything was shattered- his trust, his hopes, his love. I ran as far as I could, pushing the past and not even apolozing for my act. I need to go to my corner. I need to breathe some air. I need to drown in my space. I need to breakdown. ........