"So totoo na talaga? Babalik kana?" Natalia asked me.
"Yeah. I still want him, I love him." I answered.
"You know you're just gonna hurt him." I sighed at what Natalia said. I know that. But I won't admit it.
"I'll never gonna leave him again." I said.
"Okay, fine. That's your decision." Natalia sighed and go out of my room. I really feel that i'm just gonna hurt him, but love is not love without pain. I really love him, I can't lose him again. I know he still love me. Things will be okay April. I sighed. I should think before I act. Nawala ang iniisip ko ng narinig ko na nag-beep ang phone ko. It was him and he texted me.
Hey love, are you sleeping?
I smiled. I miss him calling and texting me love. I texted him back.
Not yet, why???
And after I sent that he called me.
"Hey love. Bakit hindi ka pa natutulog?" He asked.
"I'm thinking of something." I answered.
"What was that? I hope it's not about us. I mean we're happy, i'm happy that you gave me second chance." He said. I smiled a little.
"You want me to sing for you?" He asked.
"Hmmn, why not." As I answered I heard him playing a guitar.
Welcome to Wonderland
We've got it all
Potions and pastries that make you grow tall
Forests and cottages, castles and cards that can talk
Nice voice. I miss his voice. I wonder what song is he playing.
Welcome to Wonderland
Look where you're at
Maddest of hatters
The Cheshire Cat
Magical cabins and lovely white rabbits with clocks
"I love you." He said before starting to sing again.
Dancing through a dream
Underneath the stars
Laughing 'til the morning comes
Everyone that leaves has a heavy heart
Oh, Wonderland I love
Welcome to Wonderland
I'll be your guide
Holding your hand under sapphire skies
Let's go exploring or we could just go for a walk
"Let me be your guide." He whispered.
Welcome to Wonderland
Where should we go?
There's a tea party along down the road
Make an appearance and maybe they'll sing us a song
Dancing through a dream
Underneath the stars
Laughing 'til the morning comes
Everyone that leaves has a heavy heart
Oh, Wonderland I love
Narinig ko sya na parang may pinipigilan. "Oct are you okay?" I asked, but he started singing again.
Nothing around here is quite
As it seems
Not sure if anything is real
Or a dream
And the only thing sure from the start
Is the song that's inside of your heart
Don't let it leave
If this was a dream
Then at least I've got
Memories for when morning comes
Now that I must leave with a heavy heart
Oh, Wonderland I love
"Oct. Are you okay?" I asked again. I heard him laugh, a forced laugh.
"I'm fine, love. It's just...." a long silence was built in our conversation.
"Just what?" I confusingly asked.
"If you're going to leave me again, can we first build our wonderland?" He asked.
"Oct." I can't say any word.
"Please? You know, i'm not the best man that you'll know. But can I atleast have a good memory that I can come back after you're gone. I know you'll never pick me in the end-" I cut him off.
"Oct, you're the best man that I know." I said.
"No, that's not true. But please April. Can you give me the happiest dream that will make me happy when I wake up?" I asked. I heard her crying. It's so hard. Knowing that someone will leave you, knowing that the person you love isn't meant for you. But who am I to question that? Maybe it's my karma by killing a lot.
"April?"
"Okay Oct. We will have a lot of memories together." She said. I sadly smile.
"Thank you." I ended the call and let my tears fall.
"Oct." I heard someone call my name. It's my brother, Lucifer.
"What do you need?" I asked, wiping my tears.
"You can cry." He said and sat beside me.
"Bakit ang daming responsibilidad, Lucifer? Gusto ko na maging masaya. Gusto ko na sya makasama." I looked at the ceiling of my office.
"Hmn, you know you can't have her. April, right?" Asked Lucifer. I looked at him, he's now strumming the guitar.
"Ngayon na umalis na si Phaxton. Mas maraming trabaho ang kailangan mong gawin. Know your priorities, Oct." He said.
"How about you? How about Irish?" I asked. Ngayon ko lang naalala.
"I let her go." He said.
"You sing for her?" I asked and he nodded.
"For the last time. I'll never know what will happen to me." I laughed at what he said.
"Hindi ka ba napapagod?" I asked and averted my gaze in the ceiling.
"Napapagod. Pero you know our job. Wala dapat tayong maging kahinaan." He said. I sighed.
"I'm sorry." I said. I heard him sighed.
"It's no one's fault." He said. My guilt is eating me again. I started crying.
"Kung hindi sana ako tumagal. Kung inuna ko kayo edi sana hindi yon nangyari. Edi sana walang namatay, edi sana nandito pa si mommy ngayon." My jaw clenched.
"It's not your fault, bro." Lucifer tapped my shoulder and leave my office. I looked at the door, it's the first time he called me bro.
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Author's note: I got inspired to update kasi start na ng klase namin bukas,,,,,
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Leaving on a jet plane
RomanceThe leader. Oct Notley Storm was known as a cold-hearted man, but he changed for his queen. Was the pain worth it for her? Or she'll be his biggest what if?
