knitted Destiny by Fate

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What is good for you may also be bad for you, if given to you too earlier it might be that you are not ready to handle that responsibility...

They say everything takes time and right things will happen at the right time, we shouldnt force things because what's yours will always find its way back to you and every single thing happens for a reason.

Unfortunately fate has a twist on our lives.

The night I had to decide to either live or to die with my loved ones. I chose to live, I chose to replay the pain, I chose the trauma but breathing.

Reliving the moments I spent with them because they did not get a choice, I was the one who saw the house crumbling, flames of fire furnacing, the smoke darkening the sky like a heavy storm about to break,.

Two options were only available at that moment, jump into the fire and die or to live and bear the pain for the rest of my life.

Ten years since the accident and not a single memory was erased from my mind. My foster family tried their best to ensure that I don't think of the past but they can never fill the void.

There was a time I wished I had a normal family not the  one I first had, but now I wish I can turn back time, swallow my words and get back my weird crazy family back because I never was normal and I never will be after attending a funeral of 12 people, my own flesh and blood.

I'm in my first year of university now...

I feel as if my life has just restarted, I have accepted the pain, I don't cry anymore.
Nomatter how much I still wish to get my family back, they don't exist in this world anymore, it's impossible for them to come back.

The responsibility to live for everyone was given to me earlier, it destroyed my little soul, but now I've learnt to live for me.

I understand the decision I made was to revive my bloodline, one survived that should count for something. Iam the  wonder child with a knitted Destiny by fate.