The Jealousy

A morning alarm sound that came from my phone woke me up. That made me groan because I still had a peaceful sleep. I searched all over the bed to found my phone then turned off the alarm, and went to sleep again. I thought it was too early to woke up at 7 o’clock, for I could get ready for college in 15 minutes for my first class on Monday.
It was my 2nd semester. However, I often felt my life was empty. I did not know the reason behind why I was lack of motivation or energy to do things. At that time, my parents were the ones, and maybe the only reason I still woke up in the morning to attend the morning class. I always feel grateful for every time when I remembered they gave yes answer for me studying out of Bukittinggi.

I arrived at 7:30 AM. There are some of my friends who I barely know their name, sat in their chairs and gossiping, or just focus on their phones. I was a kind of lazy person, but I will never be got late for class. Simply because I did not want everyone’s eyes to be on me when I entered the class. When I looked at the back corner seat, I feel as if it said to me “this is a place where you belong”.
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The class ended at 9:10, and I had not eaten breakfast, so I went to the canteen first to got some food. In there, I met a charming girl who was wearing a blue hoodie. She was alone with her laptop. I canceled my intention to eat my food in the dormitory house and finally gathered up some courage to sat in front of her.

“Hey, I’m sorry, but may I sit here? It seems like this is the only chair that left.”
“Oh yeah, sure! Maybe this one is for you, Rey”. She replied with a beautiful smile that shows dimple on her left cheek.

I was about to say thank you to her, but I was too shocked because she knows my name! I could not believe what I just heard, so I asked her,

“Do you know my name?”
“What? Rey, we are in the same class for the public speaking course! Haha, but I’m not surprised at all since we all know you are such an antisocial. I’m Arum, and if you agree, we can be friends from now on.”

I smiled a little and shook her hand as the answer to her offer the befriend.

“Why did  you ask me to be your friend, Arum?”
“Because I think you need at least one friend? Then, why did you agree, Rey?” She asked me back.

I answered with what was in my mind,

“Because I think you are an interesting girl, full of charm, and maybe you are right when you said I need at least one friend.”

With a narcissistic tone, Arum said, “Yes, I am.”

We both laughed.
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Days turned into weeks and months. Time sure flew fast. Without I realized, it was our first day of the semester holiday, so that means it’s time to go home for students who lived far away from their parents. It’s the same with me and Arum. We both lived out of this friendly city, Purwokerto.
Remembered that I would not be able to see Arum in two months, more or less, thus I called her at the night. It was December 15th, 2015. I asked her to hang out and eat with me before she went back to Bogor.

“Hey, Arum. Can you go out with me tonight? Uhm… I think I’m gonna miss you. Let's say it is our farewell before the holiday. Hahaha.”

“Hahaha Rey, we will meet again eventually.”

“Yeah I know it, but I want to see you before I go to Bukittinggi. Can I?”
“Okay, sure. But Rey, I cannot go tonight. I already have a plan with my new boyfriend. How about tomorrow night? And for your info, I go home next week, Rey hahaha. So, there’s still time.”

“Oh. Okay. Understand.”

I answered her with a cold tone, and that made our conversation ended. I was so surprised to hear that she had a boyfriend, so that was all I could say to her. I felt weird and angry. That night, I knew I was more than jealous and kept telling myself that Arum belongs to me.

At night on December 18th, I came to Arum’s dormitory house in Cendrawsih street. That was around 11.30 p.m, and the environment was deserted. I thought that the situation would help me. I jumped through the gate and tried to unlock the door with the duplicate keys that I had stolen from Arum awhile ago. I was lucky, for everyone in the dormitory seemed to have back to their home.

I immediately went through the second floor. I knew Arum’s room was in the left corner because I’d done the research. From the outside, her room was dark, so I thought she was sleeping. I tried to open the door as slowly as I could to not wake her up.

“WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU?” she shouted at surprised

I was also surprised knowing she was not sleeping yet and still on her phone.

“Shhh, it’s me. Reynaldi. Please calm down.” I said that after closed the door and turned on the light.

“WTF, Rey. How did you can get here?!”

“You don’t need to know. I come here to say that I love you, Arum. And one thing you need to know. You belong to me. No one allows you to have you unless me. Please…”

Before I could finish my sentence, Arum shouted.

“You are fucking crazy, Rey. I have a boyfriend, and the most important thing is I don’t love you. Stop this stupidity and go back!”

I could see in her eyes that she was scared of me. Instead of feeling sorry, I was even angrier.

“Plaakkk…” I slapped her in the right cheek.
She cried in fear. That made me feel pleased. At that time, I could not hold my lust and was about to rape her.

“You are fucking coward!” there was hatred and anger in her cracking voice.

Hearing her words made my anger more soared. At that time, my mind was changed to want to kill her. I grabbed her head and hit it in the wall as strong as I could. She was lying on the floor unconscious.
Afterward, I was throwing a small study table on her head. I saw blood from her head, and in a second later I felt guilty.
In a screwed and panic situation, I called grab car. It was around 12.10 A.M. I had to bring out Arum to decrease the suspicion. The grab car arrived in 10 minutes. I told the driver that Arum had a big fight with her boyfriend earlier and she called me to helped her, but I was kinda late. We were heading to Margono Hospital.

After getting there, Arum directly got into the emergency room. In there, I told the medical workers the same thing as I had told the grab driver. When I was done with the registration thing and nobody’s eyes on me, I went back to my dormitory house in Karangwangkal. I packed my stuff in a hurry, later on heading to Purwokerto train station. I took the earliest departure to Yogyakarta and then went back to my house in Bukittinggi with a flight. That was 02.49 A.M. On my way, I wish she was losing her memory and forgot all the things that had happened.

The End