(A/N: read my note @ the end of the chap pls pls pls)
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As soon as I finish vomiting I look up see two shadows in front of me. One being Louis and the other being Niall. Louis walks around the vomit and rubs my back softly.
"Do you want some water, kid?" Louis asks and I nod.
"I'll get it," Niall says and runs back inside the house.
"Hurry, if we leave now he won't notice." I say and start walking to my car.
"Ava no, you have to talk to Niall. Besides he is not dumb. He will notice when he comes back and sees that we're not here." Louis sighs.
"No, I don't have to talk to him. He said something he shouldn't have said." I cross my arms over my chest.
"He was drunk, Ava. Don't blame it all on him."
"I am not going to talk to him." I say.
"Very well. I already told Harry we were leaving. And I grabbed your things."
"Thanks Louis." I give him a small smile and grab my things from him.
We start walking towards my car but then I remembered that I gave Niall a ride so I am not sure how Niall is supposed to get home. I hear the front door open again and see Niall walking this way again with a bottled water in his right hand. Louis stops walking and Niall starts catching up to us. I keep walking but Louis grabs my wrist and pulls me back. I don't want to talk to Niall. I told him to stay away from me but he won't listen.
"Here you go," Niall says and hands me the bottle.
I nod and take the bottle from him. I uncap it and take a few chugs. When I am done drinking I cap it back and look at Niall.
"Can we talk for a second?" Niall asks me.
I look away from Niall and look at Louis. I don't feel comfortable talking to Niall at the moment.
"I think it is best if we don't talk right now." I say and walk towards my car. Louis stays behind and I hear him telling Niall to catch a ride with someone else and that I will call him when I am ready. I scoff in my mind, I don't think I will ever be ready. Everything will just be awkward between us.
Louis drives my car since I am not feeling well and I'm still a bit tipsy. Louis said he was sobering up and that he didn't feel drunk anymore.
It's 12:35 am and by the time we get to my house it's 1 am. None of the lights are on from my house so that means my parents are probably sleeping already. I feel bad that they had to eat dinner alone but I couldn't have missed Louis's birthday party even if it was one of the worst days of my life.
I unlock the door with my keys and open the door. Once we're inside I walk to the kitchen.
"Want anything?" I ask Louis.
"Hot cocoa," Louis responds.
I grab the milk from the fridge and then grab one of those little packets with the powder of cocoa from the cabinet. I empty the milk and powder into two mugs and stir for a while then put the mugs into the microwave.
When the microwave dings I take the mugs out and hand one to Louis. I ask Louis if he wants any marshmallows and he scoffs and says, "it's not hot cocoa without marshmallows."
We walk to my room where I turn on this heater in my room and we sit on my bed without letting the hot cocoa spill.
We don't talk at first, we just sit there in silence. So many thoughts are going on and questions as well but we stay quiet through it all.
We end up only drinking half of our hot drinks because we start getting sleepy so we place the mugs on my desk. Louis turns the lights and the heater off then lays down with me. Louis grabs my waist and pulls me toward him and he wraps his arms around me. I giggle and tangle my legs with his.
"I feel like I am not gay anymore," Louis whispers.
"That's what the dark forces of Avalon do," I say and Louis chuckles. I yawn and snuggle into Louis more. "Goodnight Louis."
"Goodnight, love."
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I wake up without Louis next to me. There is a little paper on my desk. I pick it up and read.
merry xmas sunshine! i had 2 leave early cuz i had 2 help harry clean :( I'll text u later
I put the paper back on the desk and sigh. Today was going to be an uneventful day beside it being Christmas and all. I might stay home all day to avoid going to the hospital.
I get off my bed and decide to shower. I grab a t-shirt, fluffy pajamas, panties, and a sports bra. When I enter the bathroom I undress and turn the shower on.
Once I am done scrubbing my body and scalp I exit the shower and dress into my clothes. I blow dry my hair so it won't be wet. When I am finished I go to the kitchen. Mom is sitting on a stool drinking tea while my Dad is eating eggs.
"Merry Christmas sweetie," Mom smiles. She stands up and gives me a hug.
"You too Mom. Sorry I couldn't be here last night." I say and sit down on a stool next to my Dad. Dad looks at me and tells me Merry Christmas as well and then gives me a kiss on my forehead.
"Oh dear it's fine. Did you have a nice time at Louis's party?" She asks.
Hell no. I think but I only nod.
"Do you want breakfast?" Mom asks and I nod again. "Once we are finished eating breakfast we can open gifts?"
"Sure Mom." I respond. Mom hands me my plate of food then sits down.
We eat in silence until my Dad reads us an article that was on the newspaper this morning.
I look at the clock when we are finished eating and it is almost 11 am. I help my Mom clean the kitchen and load the dishwasher. When we get done cleaning the kitchen Dad is sitting on the couch watching Pawn Stars. A few seconds later Mom makes him turn the television off in which Dad groans and throws a pillow at her but she dodges it.
Mom then makes Dad and I sit by the small little Christmas tree in the corner next to the fire place.
Mom grabs a very large box and gives it to me. I squeal in joy. When I unwrap the gift I see a fucking record player. I have been wanting one for so long now!
"Wow, thank you guys! How did you know?" I hug my parents.
"We know our daughter." Dad says and Mom nods.
Mom hands me another square box and I unwrap it. There about 10 vinyls there. I almost die. They bought me vinyls of Lana Del Rey, Ed Sheeran, The Beatles, and a few others. I smile very big I think I'm going to stay with a smile on my face forever. Mom hands me a couple other gifts like make up, perfumes, clothes, and gift cards. I handed my parents their gifts from me (which I bought a few days ago because I didn't know what to get them).
I bought Mom a gift card to Macy's, another giftcard to Panera (which is her favorite restaurant), a pair of earrings, and new nailpolishes. Mom gave tons of kisses on my cheeks for remembering that her favorite place is Panera.
For Dad I bought him sunglasses, a few ties, and a gift card to Home Depot (also known as his second home). Dad laughed at his giftcard but he gave me hugs and kisses nonetheless.
And as I cleaned the living room after opening the gifts I thought about how fortunate I am for having loving parents, a roof over my head, and a life. Hopefully I can stay on this earth for more years to come but sometimes you don't always get what you want.
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it was 1am when i was writing this ¿¿ like why was i up??¿ anyway recxrds followed me a few days ago and i almost cried. (the pic on the side was my reaction for when she followed me omf)
