No One Can Love Me

Chapter 1

I look down at my feet as a mixture of rain and tears hit my shoes. I feel my hair becoming heavier as it absorbs the fallen rain and my clothes do the same. No matter what I do I can't get the image of her out of my mind. The image of her small brittle body in the bulky hospital bed. As much as I try to replace it with happier memory's the same horrid image replaces it within seconds.

My funeral clothes are now soaked and I can feel the makeup running down my face. I look around me to see myself in the park. I remember running from my moms funeral in the middle of the ceremony but I don't remember telling my legs to run here.

I sit down on the bench and cry. Eventually my cries turn into sobs. I don't bother choking them back. I place my hand in my pocket wrapping it around my 'security blanket'. I take it out and place it along my wrist, lining it up with the rest. I press it into my skin and feel all my pain go away. I make a total of 34 before I place it back in my pocket. 34 for every year she lived without being in pain from the cancer. "498," I sob. 498 scars.

I here the sound of a car driving on the wet streets. I turn around to see my dads car driving towards me. I quickly let the rain wash away the blood off my wrists and cover them with my sleeves. My dad motions me to enter the car and I do, making sure he can't see the fresh wounds and the blood coming out of them. I stare out the window in silence, not exchanging any words with my father.
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*hey sorry it's so short most of the chapters will be. The story will get interesting soon I promise!😂 srry if u didn't like it🙌