my mind literally overflows with pictures and words and shit that don't make sense. i don't know who i want to be or what i want to be, all i know is i'm not satisfying myself in any way.. i used to be smart, now i act dull and reckless because that is my role. i used to be innocent, now i have a sort of boyfriend who talks about fucking my brains out 200% of the time. and although it's "unfair" that a girl as opulent in knowledge and spirit as me is now struggling to recognize who's looking back at her in the mirror i know that it is my fault. ok
