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i sighed looking up at the sky as it was getting a bit cloudy. "i should've brought an umbrella with me today." i was sitting down at a bench at my favorite bridge where i wuld mostly look over to see the koi fish but i didn't feel like doing that today. water started to drip onto me but i didn't really care that i was going to get soaked from the rain soon, i couldn't care less about most stuff right now. i kept feeling the rain getting harder and harder and soon it started pouring. i was still sitting down on the bench not really wanting to move or anything.
waters started to run down my cheeks but it wasn't the rain, it was my tears instead. i was always told crying in the rain was the best thing ever so i do that every time it rains so i can let out my emotions. i can't believe i'm still crying of the same thing and it's been days already i should just get over it. "what's the point in crying when that's not going to help me get him? i'm just being dumb right now and hopeless, crying doesn't solve anything." i started to hit my forehead in frustration and ended up just covering my eyes in my knuckles and just crying even more. "why does something like this have to happen to me? am i that bad of a person that bad stuff happens to me? he's not mine anymore and i can't handle that anymore"
i tried wiping away my tears but they kept coming down and i wanted it to stop already. "stop crying over it felix stop being pathetic" i said to myself trying to make the tears go away but they won't stop. my eyes were probably red by now from all the tears i had and they still wouldn't stop coming out. i soon heard someone sit next to me putting an umbrella over me "felix are you ok?" they asked in a concerned way and i just looked at them to see who it was and it was hyunjin. when i looked over at hyunjin he looked shocked and dropped the umbrella and immediately and hugged me.
"you're going to get soaked and you'll get sick" i said with a shaky voice taking deep breaths because i can't talk that well while crying. he continued to hug me "i don't care if i get sick, you're clearly sad right now and i don't want that" i smiled a bit and hid my face in his chest getting his shirt wet from my tears but it was also getting soaked from the rain too. he started to play with my hair while i had my face hidden in his chest. "why are you being so nice to someone you barely know?" my breathing was controlled a bit better but not that well "you just seem like a person i want to protect no matter what plus to me it feels like i do know you." i didn't really questioned what he said to me because i didn't want something else getting me worried or overthink "so what's wrong lix?" when he used that nickname it made my heart feel a bit warm.
i took a deep breath before talking because i knew it was going to take a lot out of me. i looked up at hyunjin and he looked down at me wiping my tears away for me. "this is probably seem weird but like i didn't know i was in a coma when i was in one, i thought everything that happened to me in my coma was real. it was just a dream pretty much where i met the love of my life and when everything was getting better i had to wake up from that stupid coma. i wish i didn't wake up from it now because in that world it was going so well for me and now the person that i loved is still here but just barely knows me and i will never get them back." more tears started to stream down my face the more i talked about it but hyunjin just wiped them away and i liked that because even though it's raining his hands were still warm and i just loved that. "maybe that dream you had was telling you about what could happen, don't give up on yourself. this can be just a new start for you to make it better"
i soon stopped crying as badly and hyunjin wiped my last tear away. "thank you hyunjin, for being here for me?" he smiled at me then let me go when his phone buzzed. he checked his phone and looked back at me "i have to go now but i'll see you later. take my umbrella, i don't want you to get sick as badly and please take care of yourself for me." he got up and shot a soft smile at me and i did the same back. he started to walk away and i grabbed his umbrella and put it over me.
i looked at him while he was walking away and i couldn't let him go like this so i got up and ran towards him and said his name. he looked over at me a stood there and i went up and smashed my lips onto his. i let go of the umbrella and put my hands on his cheeks and he started to kiss me back which surprised me. he put his hands around my waist and pulled me closer and started to deepen the kiss. i missed his lips and his touch, i never want to loose it ever again.
we shared the kiss for a while but departed having our foreheads on each others. we just looked at each other for a bit in silence but it was a comfortable silence that i enjoyed having with him. i never want this to end ever again, i'll make sure hyunjin becomes mine once again.
