A Love-Hate Relationship

The Beach

Bon's POV

Goddamn that Okumura. How can he always smile like nothings wrong? His world is falling apart around him but he puts up this act like everything is totally normal. Like being the son of Satan is something everyone deals with. It pisses me off. 

I take a deep breath and watch everyone else play in the sand as the sun begins to set in the background. 

Naturally, Renzo is starring at Izumo in her swim suit while Konekomaru tries to pull Renzo's attention away from Izumo before he gets into trouble. Moriyama pats the sand on top of the now buried Rin Okumura. 

Even now, I can't get him off my mind.

A gentle oceans breeze reaches the bench that I'm sitting on. I close my eyes and relax against the bench, arms propped up on the top of the backboard. It's warm out this evening. Okumura's laugh rings in my ears and I can't help but clench my jaw.

"Hey Bon!" A distant voice yells towards me. My eyes immediantly open and notice it has gotten dark. 

Damn, did I fall asleep? It only feels like I had my eyes closed for a few seconds. I look around and see Okumura, sand covering his swim shorts and his sword slung around his shoulder in the red carrier. He waves and me and has that stupid smile still plasterd on his face. 

"Where's everyone else?" I grumble rubbing my face.

"They are in town getting some food to bring back" He sits down next to me on the bench. I take my arms down from the top of the bench and rub my now sore shoulders. "I'm trying to convince them to camp out under the stars tonight. They aren't all for it" he chuckles. I just ignore what he says. I don't care.

"Man, why don't you like me?" His face is now serious with genuine confusion. I bite the inside of my cheek and look away. 

It's not like I don't like him. I know he is a good guy. I just don't trust him. Rin Okumura. The son of Satan.

"Pfft" I roll my eyes. "It's not like I hate you" I look out to the sea. All I can see is the moonlight being reflected off of it. The calmness keeps me from just walking away from this conversation.

"Then what is it?!" He raises his voice at me and starts getting angry. I can't decide if I want to laugh or punch him. 

"I'm trying so hard to be the good guy but you never have any faith in me!" He jumps up off the bench and stands in front of me. "I want to be your friend! Why can't you see that?!"

At first I just glare at him then, I smile. 

"Finally" I mumble.

"What?" He gives me a confused look and steps back.

"You annoy me" I speak, leaning back up against the bench. "You want to be strong all the time. I am your friend. We all are. But you never come to us for help... You think you can just take on this world alone! The world we live in, the world with demons... You shouldn't think you have to do it alone! You shouldn't deal with this alone!" I yell at him, my fists tight in a ball.

I sigh, looking down at my tense fists. I relax myself and look back up.

"Knowing you are half Satan, training to control flames, doing the normal stuff like class. It all has to be hard and all you do is smile and deal with it by yourself. I want to help. I want to be able to trust you but if you can't trust me enough to ask for help then why should I put any effort into being friendly with you?" 

He chuckles and sits down on the ground, his tail resting behind him. He grabs onto the carrier bag and nods.

"I understand why that seems so rebellious. You think I shouldn't have to deal with it alone but, the way I think, you guys shouldn't have to worry about it. I train all night and during class, I dose off. I'm not falling alseep because I don't care about it. I'm falling asleep because I'm working hard at night. You guys are my friends. Family even. I don't want to hurt you guys. You shouldn't have to be afraid. So I try to hide the fact I'm different. I just want to be a normal friend" He says, twiddling his thumbs. 

"Yea well, I don't care what you think. If you need motivation while training or need help studying or anything, I'm always willing to help" I kick his knee then stand up, reaching a hand out. He takes my hand and I help him off the ground. 

"Talk to me Rin" I say. First time I called him by his first name. It's a little strange.

He just smiles and shakes his head.

"Lets go find where they are! I'm starving!" He claps his hands together.