Hello To Whom May Be Reading This,
This is not a fictional story, this is my diary, I am bisexual, and I need somewhere to vent my feelings, since I have yet to 'Come Out'.
You see it all started around summer;
I was just with some friends at the park, On the swings listening to the radio, I was 12 at the time, two months off being 13. Radio 1, it was and they played, what will be an all time fave song for me, Bedrock by Young Money. Now, I had never listened to 'Rap' before and never thorught I would, I was more into; Miley Cyrus, Justin Bieber, Katy Perry and Taylor Swift. And I remember when the lyrics came on:
Ok, I Get It, I Guess Its My Turn, Its Time To Put it On Your Side Burns...
Nicki. Fucking. Minaj.
As soon as I got home I googled Bedrock then Nicki Minaj, and lets just say, I fell inlove <3.
Soon after listening to her songs I also found people like Drake, Lil Twist, Lil Wayne, Jae Millz and so on.
Then as life went on I became my love of Nicki was alittle bit more then just thinking she was pretty.
I thorught I was just tricking myself at first, Didn't think I was really Bisexual, but no, then I meet a girl called Ashley and I started to fanice her, But I also faniced boys too...
And that brings us to now, After a long time I've accepted I'm Bisexual.
But No-one knows, Since I haven't come out yet.
Alot of people may think when you think your; Lesbian, Gay or Bisexual you just wake up and tell everyone. No. Its a prossces, and a long one.
And confusing.
So this is it, My first step into coming out;
11.15am.
School. 1st Break.
We were all talking by all I mean; Nikki, Alicia, Taylor, Mel, Samantha, Jude and Maxxie. When I said;
I Hate Homophobic People.
Nikki, Alicia and Jude agreed, The others were too ingrossed in other thing to notice I'd said anything.
Atleast I have 3 people I won't lose when I come out.
Well 1 at the minimum, Alicia is a BIG Gay, Bi and Lesbian supporter <3
Thats it for today,
Becca X
