Sad, Beautiful, Tragic.

Thoughts of 'what could have been' ran through my mind, I regretted not taking him up on his offer fore I had missed so much.

It was the start of every day like any other, 6 A.M. time for school. I had dreaded this but there was only a short amount of time before it was over. only then could i spend my days lounging on the couches and sleeping in until I could sleep no more, pure bliss.

I entered my first period class with a mound of books in my arms. I was drained, and purely tiered. Life really stank when it came to school, people you don't want to see, but then friends your gonna miss, ex-boyfriends, but the new crushes on your list....so many things that keep you coming back. Yes I have my mind set on school but I also have a few other personal goals that I am awaiting to achieve.

After lunch I strode down the hall and to the staircase which lead to the second level of our of the building. I stopped to say hello to a couple of friends before gradually making my way to my locker. I hurriedly put the combination in and successfully unlock it so that I can retrieve the possessions held within. Just two lockers down was my newest crush, Bryan. He wasn't the most handsome and he wasn't the nicest but to me he was, and that's all I wanted, but I ran into a few issues:

• he was popular

• I had no clue if he felt the same since the beginning of school

• he had said some pretty harsh stuff to my best friend

Other than that He was golden.

I sat at my desk hard at work on the math problems that had been given to me to finish in silence. When I finished, I watched carefully as my peers concentrated keenly on the task at hand. This class is an extra class given to those who 'need extra help' with their math skills, but I for one am pretty confident I do just fine. But the other seven people that are in this extra elective class with me sure do need the extra help. It isn't so hard to keep your mind from wandering as you sit there in boredom of everything around you. I started to daydream about Bryan, who evidently sat rightt next to me, and how great of a relashonship we could share. I wanted it so badly, and I never even had interest in him, I thought we were just friends, but I was so wrong when I started thinking about him 24/7, my thoughts revolved around him and I was trapped. It never seemed I could push him out of my mind. I always played scenarios in my head of 'what could have been' and It gave me that feeling of wanting to have the assurance of being wanted by someone, it couldn't be just anyone, but that certain someone. It was like you were never satisfied with anything else, you had one goal and one goal only; snatch that hotty! I was so-----

"Alright, now is everyone finished?" Mrs. Defros's voice cracked through my ears causing me to snap out of my daze and into the 'now'.

I quickly muttered, "yeah so can we move on?" trying to act like i was not in outer space the whole time, but thank god she didn't hear me, Bryan did and he chuckled which caused a smirk to form on my face.

Mrs. Defros: "Alright can I have A couple volunteers to come to the board to show their work?"

I quickly shoot my hand up along with Joseph, a tenderly sweet guy that has been my friend for a while and who has always been there somehow.

Mrs.Defris: "Okay, Joseph and Claire go ahead. Do problem number 6 on the board.",She stated more than asked, but it's all good cause I know what I am doing.

After I was finished I made my way back to my seat, which was only a few paces away from the board since the room was so small and confined. I then resumed my position next to Bryan. Oh man did he make my heart race. He gave me this look that said something but I'm not quit sure what.

"Claire? Can I have some help? I don't understand this." It was not unusual for him to ask me for help on math problems because he always did.

"Sure. What do you not get?" Alright I gotta keep my cool.

"Uhh, like how do you cross multiply the fractions? It's so hard." He then shot me this flirty smile that caused me to beam back at him. He sure new how to play his crads.

"Well you first flip the right one, then you cross multiply the top left with the bottom right, and the top right with the bottom left. Make sense?"

"Uhh not really can you show me?" I quickly drew the problems on a piece of paper and demonstrated to him how it was done.

"There does that help?"

"Yeah, thanks."

I then turned myself to face forward towards the board to focus my attention on the teacher over looking our problems.

(Bus)

-"SHUTUP!!!" Carrie shouted.

Me:"No you don't tell me what to do."

Carrie:"No you quit being a bitch, and stop talking to my brother."

Me:"It's not my fault he likes me." I said being a smart ass.

Carrie:"He doesn't like you! Your a fucking ugly moose, so if you can do us all a favor, turn around so we can't see your face."

Me:"Thanks,i appreciate the compliment." I was pissed, but I had to bite my tounge. I have had enough of this girl. She was my neighbor and she was only a few seats behind me on the bus. She had a hunger for starting bullshit with me and it was old. We had been friends before but it got to the point where all she did was talk smack behind my back. To avoid anymore fuss I quickly spun around to talk to my best friend Peyton who was curiously watching the little outburst started by Carrie.

Me: "Peyton do you really think that was necessary?"

Peyton: "Not really, I mean all you were doing was talking to her brother, and she just went all bitch crazy on you."

Me:"Yeah I know, she has something against me. I dont know what it is but it's so agervating. GOSSSSSHH-A!" I Said dragging out the 'sh' and adding a sassy 'a' to the end.

Peyton:"Yeah never mind her. So what are we doing this weekend?"

Me:"Uh hmm...? Maybe tan? It's supposed to be super nice out, like 80 degrees, so we can lay in the sun for a little bit."

Peyton:"Sure. Sounds good."

Me:"Kay. So did I tell you who I like?"

Peyton:"No! Who!?" She asked eagerly staring into my eyes.

Me:"I like Bryan. I know it's weird but I do."

Peyton:"Oh. My. Gosh! You so do not?!"

Me:"I so do!" I then started laughing and smiling a smile that flashed my feelings for him. If only she knew.

Peyton:"Okay, your crazy girl. Whatever." She undermined my confession and just smiled at me one of those smiles. You know? The 'I-cannot-believe-you-like-him' smiles.

The bus jerked to stop. I said goodbye and waltzed off the bus. I then swiftly walked to my house eager to tell my mom about my day that contains not so much at all.

It was around 6:00 P.M. I was drowning in homework. I could barely breathe, I was so overwhelmed, My thoughts were scattered like ants and I could not focus. Maybe if I just took a moment to think about him he would leave my thoughts. NO! I need to focus on school, he doesn't even like me and I'm pretty sure that all the other girls that like him have a better chance. So I will just forget it.

Vote/comment.....do whatever all of you do. Let me know what you think. Constructive criticism is greatly appreciated. Thanks-----Kay bub bye<3