Why Me?

Prologue

Alana's POV

~Flashback~

"Come to my room to watch TV" my 15 year old cousin said to me because he was babysitting his sister and I, I am 7 and she is 4, but she was asleep so I was alone so I followed him to his room. "Pick any channel" he said and I sat on his bed which was in front of the TV and turned it on and put on Dora. He sat next to me and put a blanket around me, I pulled it over myself and layed down on my stomach and turned my attention to the TV. After awhile he put his habd on my lower back and I felt uncomfortable but just shrugged it off. Then before I knew it he had me on my back "What ar-?" he cut me off by putting his lips on mine and I squirmed to get out off his reach but he was much stronger then me. He quickly yanked down his pants and then reached for mine "No-" I said and he once again crashed his lips on mine kissing me forcefully and I was struggling to get out because he was going for my lower region. He pulled my undergarment to the side and was positioning himself while I was begging him to stop when all of a sudden he heard a knocking on his door and he jumped off and I quickly scrambled out of the bed and I put my pants back on and he opened the door and his little sister had woken up and was looking for me "Alana, Dora is almost done" she said and I looked at her "I know, umm... I need to use the bathroom" I said running pass her and locking myself in the bathroom, looking back at what just happened to me.

~Present Day~

"I never told anyone" I said quietly tears pouring down my face "It's ok now, I am so proud you told me, God is happy, that is such a huge step" My best friend Allison said but I call her, Ally and I nodded and hugged her and I cleaned myself back up and walked back to my friend like nothing happened, like I have done a lot. They were all talking and I was deep in thought.

It has been seven years and I can never forget what happened to me, I have kept it a secret for seven years! Yet, sometimes I still cry myself to sleep. My parents don't even know and they never will, I know they wont believe me. I still have to see that guy because he is my cousin but I can never look him in the eye.

When that happened I had no one to hold me or to tell me everything was alright, and I hate how some people think they have a hard life because they don't have the newest shoes, they don't know what hard is. All I have ever wanted was someone to comfort me through that tough time and I had no one but myself and a pillow.

And he will pay for that.

I know it's short but I will post another chapter soon