Why Me?

Chapter 1

Alana

She is 10 years old

After all those years I am finally starting to understand what happened to me, I was small and I really didn't understand what happened to me and as I am getting older I am finally starting to see what happened to me and how that event is shaping the person I am today.

I am the kind of girl that is crazy and loud, always smiling, and most of the time laughing. On the inside I am sad, depressed, feel unwanted, and I am breaking little by little. I just wish someone would notice and to make me feel loved.

She is 11 years old

I am still depressed and have never told anyone, and that's pretty hard when you constantly have flashbacks and you have to fight back tears and smile like nothings wrong. I was pulled out of my thoughts when my friends voice came through my ears, we were eating lunch with a bunch of people "Have you ever had your first kiss?" she asked and I smiled "No, but whats the rush? We got time" I said, yes I have had my first kiss and way more, did I want it to be taken away like that? No, did I have a choice though? Sadly no. This is why probably no one has figured out that I am sad, I hide it so well it never seems that I am sad because I am funny, crazy, sassy, loud, and sometimes mean, I mean you expect me to be quiet, shy, and socially awkward but I'm not. I am just me.

She is 12 years old

Currently I am at a family party telling people hi and saying how good they look when I see him "Hello" I spat and he smiled "Hello Alana" He said giving me a kiss on the cheek and giving me a hug, I pushed him away "Hi, what horrible earrings you have on" I said with venom dripping into my voice "Don't be grumpy" He said smiling and I kicked him in the groin since no one was around because they went to go get food "Don't be surprised when you go to hell" I said pushing past him and to everyone else. "Hey Al!" my little cousins said coming up to hug me "Guys, I saw you five minutes ago" I said wiggling my way out of their grips "Lets go eat!" I said walking away from them and I saw him staring at me out of the corner of my eyes and I walked to get my food.

Sorry this is a short chapter but I don't want this book to be rushed and if you want more chapters please help me get my votes up and reads thank you for reading :)