Bakugou one-shots (DISCONTINUED?)

💔Depressed!bakugou x shinsou ☁️

(i didn't rewrite this again cuz it seems fine though i didn't read it, tell me if i need to rewrite)

This was inspired by whitetiger200 please go read their books. turning this into a shinbaku story because why not :)

I'm rewriting this with a lot more context and if there are any others that need to be rewritten feel free to tell me

TW: a warning for depression, anxiety, death. I now know that can be a sensitive topic for some people

Present Mic: Alright class today we will start mental health week! today we will talk about depression.

Please come up to the board and explain your experience with depression or someone you know of's depression and how you've dealt with it.

(Wow Mike really diving deep into other peoples problems, then your not gonna do anything about it 😒)

After everyone went it was bakugou's turn, he could hear groans roam the classroom when he went up.

They all thought he would never have had depression but boy where they wrong.

Bakugou: Explaining my depression to my mother a conversation

It surprised a lot of people when he said this but they didn't think much of it

Bakugou: Mom my depression is like a shape shifter, one day its as small as a butterfly in the palm of a bear on the next its the bear.

On those days, i play dead until the bear leaves me alone. I call the bad days 'The dark days'

Some murmur to each other recalling him saying something about how he was in 'his dark days' ofc at this time they all ignored it

Mom says: Try lighting candles.

(Well that ain't very helpful now is it Mrs. Bakugou ? 😃)

Bakugou: When i see a candle i see the flesh of a church, the flicker of a flame sparks of a memory younger then noon,
i am standing by her open casket.

It is the moment i learn every person i ever come to know will some day die.

Besides mom, im not afraid of the dark...

He paused for a moment seeming to be thinking.

Bakugou: Perhaps thats part of the problem.

He continues as if nothing happened.

Mom says: I thought the problem was that you cant get out of bed?

Bakugou: I can't! Anxiety holds me a hostage inside of my house, inside of my head.

Mom says: Where did anxiety come from?

Bakugou: Anxiety visiting from out of town Depression felt obligated to bring to the party.

Mom i am the Party. Only i am a party i Don't want to be at.

Mom says: Why don't you try going to actually parties? See your friends..?

Bakugou: Sure i make plans, i make plans but i don't wanna go. I make plans because i know i should want to go, i know sometimes i would have wanted to go but its just not Fun having fun when you don't wanna have fun Mom.

This surprised his friend group, they all thought he just didn't like them.

Bakugou:You see mom, each night Insomnia sweeps me up in his arms, dips me in the kitchen in the small glow of the stove light.

Insomnia has this Romantic way of making the moon feel like perfect company.

Mom says: Try counting sheep

(Bitch i know you did not just-)

they all gasped at the thought of his mother being so insensitive

Bakugou: But my mind can only count reasons to stay awake.

So i go for walks, but my stuttering knee caps clank like sliver spoons held in strong arms with loose wrists.

They Ring in my ears like clumsy church bells, reminding me i am sleepwalking on an ocean of happiness that i cannot Baptize my self in.

Mom says: Happy is a decision.

(Hold me back. Hold me the fawk back)

Bakugou: But my happy is as Hollow as a pin tricked egg, my happy is a high fever that will never break!

The class erupt in shocked gasps not only at his sudden out-burst but at his mother as well

Mom says: You are so good at making something out of nothing!

Bakugou: And then flat asks me,

Mom: Are you afraid of Dying?

Bakugou: No, i am afraid of Living! Mom i am Lonely.

I think i learned that when Dad Left to turn the Anger into lonely, the lonely into Busy.

So when i tell you that i've been super busy lately i mean, i have been falling asleep watching sports center to avoid confronting the Empty side of my bed, but my depression always brings me back to my bed.

Until my bones are the forgotten fossils of a skeleton sunken city! My mouth a boneyard of teeth broken from biting down on themselves...

The hollow auditorium. my Chest swoons with echoes of a heart beat, but i am a careless tourist here. I will Never truly know everywhere i have been.

Mom still doesn't understand. Mom can't you see that Neither Can I....

As bakugou looks up at his classmates he sees all their shocked and guilty faces.

some of which have tears falling from their eyes But the only one bakugou is worried about is his boyfriend.

You can see the disappointment and sorrow in his teary eyes and bakugou couldn't help himself but to run and hug his tall, purple haired, sleepy boyfriend.

Later that day bakugou received many apologies from people but he told them all the same thing "just forget about it".

He spent the rest of the night cuddling with shinsou and watching the little mermaid.

(if you have read my first dabibaku story you will understand the joke)

"Hey toshi?" bakugou asks looking up at his boyfriend, "Yes kat?" he asks in return. "i love you" he says and gives him a kiss before cuddling up to shinsou and shutting his eyes, "i love you too kat" he says kissing his head amd dozing off himself.

i think this is a better ship and ending

a really long one-shot