Star Wars Resistance Darknness Fades to Light

CH 4

It was nice to hear the soft sound of the calming water of Castilon's ocean. Even if it was only until tomorrow morning. Tam had more trust in the Doza family leadership of the station of The Colossus then she did in herself right now. She shifted from her side to laying on her back, hands folded on her middle. First night back home after a whole year of being with the First Order. She was pleased to have changed into a simple white shirt some blue sweat pants and boots. A little big for her as it had been her mother's hand me down. Though it was still more comfortable and colorful then that goth color clothing the First Order provided. Hanging up the suit in her room only to act as a memento of shame for the rest of her life if need be.

Kaz and Neeku got Tam caught up on everything that happened to them. That in itself was a lot to take in. It was going to be a while before her relationship with Yeager was back to normal. Who knows if it would ever be the same? Probably not and that was no one's fault but her own. Had she stayed with the First Order she would have become like a strip of light from the ceiling she was now focused on. A tiny strip of moonlight that would be gone in the morning replaced by sunlight. It could have been her to have been swapped out. Killed at any point by her superiors possibly had they thought she hadn't led that attack on the transports at Dantooine. Instead, she got to lead her squadron that helped her get away from ideals she didn't align with.

Releasing a breath Tam hadn't realized she had been holding. Sitting up from her bed needing something warm to calm her nerves and clear her head. She was indeed lucky to have survived all that time. Grabbing a mug next to the drink maker she filled it to the brim as the scent of hot chocolate reached her nose. The heat from the mug held in her hands sent a warm and fuzzy sensation all through her body. Giving a light blow on the drink she procced with a small sip. Thoughts not so frantic now that the drink tickles her throat.

"Hey, you still awake?"

A shadowy figure stepped into the beams of light showering through the garage doors.

"Can't sleep." She told Kaz.

"You excited for Captain Doza to get us back off this waterball tomorrow?" Kaz asked leaning back on the wall. Closing his eyes and folding his arms in deep thought. As if thinking about what Tam's answer to the question would be.

She smoothed out the few wrinkles in her shirt. It wouldn't prevent the thoughts from resurfacing Tam needed to concentrate on the question that was directed to her.

"I trust the Doza's to lead us in the right direction." She replied reaching for her drink taking another tiny sip. "That's all the excitement I need at the moment."

Kaz must've noticed the soft tone in her voice at the last sentence because he said "You know I'm always here if somethings on your mind." He kept his current position.

Tam gulped down the warm cocoa before speaking. "My mind has been turning with so many things today." She said now targeted on the ceiling wall. Looking at the streaks of light that would be gone when the sun rose. "I just wouldn't know where to start." She said placing the mug down on the counter.

Kaz straightens himself out looking Tam directly in the eyes. "I guess I'll start then by saying I'm sorry about lying to you about who I was and why I came to the Colossus. I was trying to act in defense of myself and others around me." He gave a nod to Tam. "That includes you and Neeku as well. I-I know it's no excuse and I'll understand if you don't ever forgive me."

"I can say the same I never should have picked the First Order over my true home. They are not my tribe you guys are." She shook her head. "I don't want to fly anymore if it means taking lives. Watching those people die above Dantooine and Aeos..." She tried to blink back the tears that threatened to take over. She couldn't hold them back. She collapses into Kaz's arms and he didn't hesitate to return the embrace. "I hate knowing that I served and gave information to a demon for what feels like so long."

"Tam I want you to look at me," Kaz said now touching her shoulders. He continued when she made eye contact with him. "I doubt the information got outside that ship to other First Order personal. Even if it did, I'm not so sure whatever you told them could be much use to them. If I'm wrong about that don't worry will find a way to beat it." An eerie silence followed as Kaz looked in the direction of the planet's moons. Then only the soft sound of his boots could be heard as Kaz kept route.

Kaz turned to her waving her forward to join him outside. She walked forwarded with her head held high. "Show that your brave and proud to be back home." She thought to herself. The closer she got to him the more her stomach began to turn. It was as if someone was deliberately trying to twist it. Just as Tierney had done to her mind some time ago.

"You were doing so great for a few moments there," Kaz said optimistically. Then you just kind of slowed down." His words trailed off as Tam spoke.

"Something you wanted me to see outside?" She asked indicated the large open space around them. Trying to hide how scared she felt. Tam hoped that this wasn't some kind of scolding Kaz was trying to give her in the dead of night. Yeager was already a tough time to deal with earlier that day. She didn't need more folks continuing to tell her about how foolish the choice had been.

"I would be honored if the bravest of us all would dance with me on this lovely night?" He asked quoting Yeager's words from earlier that day and giving a low bow.

Tam giggled in response. "I would love too."

He held out his hand to her and she took it. The two eased into simple steps allowing them to be under the moons basking glow. "Tam I think you should focus on forgiving yourself before seeking it from others." Kaz said after a few minutes." I will be there for you and so will Neeku and Yeager." He twirled Tam around. She heard the truth in Kaz's words and the love in his eyes. This was the start of healing and a new beginning with Team Colossus.