If Only

funny valentine | part 10

you feel like home,

and everywhere i've never been,

all at once

- anonymous

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Ladybug dangled her legs over the ledge she was sitting upon. The silence, alone with her thoughts wasn't necessarily a bad thing. She desperately needed time to think but with an upcoming design competition deadline and piles of school homework, extra time was out of the question. She wanted, no, needed to tell Adrien about her secret identity. The guilt had been nagging her since his reveal two weeks ago. She isn't afraid of him rejecting her, not now at least, but she is afraid of losing him. Yes, sharing their identities would bring them closer than ever before. Marinette could just picture it, one look during an akuma battle and Chat Noir would know all, no secrets between them. Unfortunately, she was terrified of her delay in announcing her biggest secret to him.

In a perfect world, she would have told him the afternoon before the Gorilla akuma attack. She would confess, tears would be shed, laughter would be shared, kisses would ensue. She could even imagine her kitty dancing around her room, overjoyed that she was Ladybug. But this isn't a purr-fect world.

Ladybug blinked.

Did she just-

Yes, she totally did. She PUNNED consciously.

Well shit, Adrien really was rubbing off on her.

A thump sounded behind her. Marinette sprung up, yo yo in hand, and positioned herself in, what Chat Noir liked to call, battlebug pose. She wrinkled her nose and giggled to herself.

Focus Marinette.

Swiveling her head, she let out a large sigh of relief at the sight of the man living in her thoughts, Chat-Adrien-Noir (?). His muscular backside was facing her. Marinette traced each curve and divot, every definition and line of his handsome back with her eyes. The young teen may have also taken a peek or two at his derrière. Shaking her head to leave the trance she had been put under, she walked to his side and laid her hand on his shoulder. The blonde wrapped his arm around her waist as she snuggled into his warm side, hip to hip. Ladybug sniffed his fresh scent and he kissed the top of her head tenderly.

Of course just as she was enjoying their moment, she remembered that Chat Noir not only had no clue of her real identity, but was affectionately loving on her like he would Marinette. The two of them never did this as their superheroine selves. Ladybug immediately pulled back and crossed to the opposite side of the roof.

This isn't right. The girl felt betrayal of her civilian form in a sense. Chat Noir couldn't hear her internal battle roaring within his love as he wrapped his arms from behind and laid his chin on her head in what seemed to be a protective manner. A protection from herself.

Shit. Shit. SHIT. 

From his smell to his warmth she was enraptured in his every being. Her mind said NO but her body said YES. A tug of war over her feelings occuring in her thoughts raged like a gruesome war with no end in sight. Then, the unspeakable happened.

A  kiss, just a press of lips as gentle as a flower petal touched hers. SHe couldn't breathe let alone think. It was so easy to get lost in Adrien's kisses.

"Mmm, A-Adrien," she moaned as he bit her lower lip teasingly.

She felt a loss of love when he sprung back, "M'lady, h-how did you know my name?"

"Uh, I-uh, um," she swallowed sharply, "Well, you see what happened was-"

"Marinette, I knew it was you," fear flooded her system as she threw her head up to look at him.