Prevention of love

He smiles but than the pain in your gut comes what if its just fake? What if he is actually being real? Does he like me? But that night you go to bed thinking I couldn't live with the feeling of knowing you could never love him like you should. Is he the reason you should die give your life for the one you love. Love can be strong but weak in times. His laugh,his smile, his personality it can be strong in times of hurt. Could he be the one to help me in this time of hurti. When the lunch bell rings you hurry down the hall to pass him you sit by him hoping he will talk to you. Then he speaks but his faint voice can't be heard by a mouse. In my head I'm thinking is he nervous maybe I shouldn't sit here. I get up. I can't help but hear a quiet don't leave. It's true he loves me I went home and at about 4:30 I realized what would the other girls think? Maybe I should do it. Kill myself now before I can be made fun of,bullied. Now the only thing on my mind is getting away from him. Cries sprung out when he read the note

Dear Jonah,

I know we had something but now it's to late I had overdosed and died. I decided to do this because I can't live with the regret of knowing I couldn't love you the way you loved me. This is out last goodbye.

<3 Sarah