I fucking hate you
You tell me you love me
That you want to understand
You tell me you want me to be happy
But shoot my smiles away
With the arsenal of words
You tell me I'm beautiful
Then you tell me I'm a freak
I guess you're either too perfect
Or not good enough
It's at that point
Where I've trained my tears to fall silently
I've forced my smiles bigger
Than the happiness within
I've been pushed out of it
Into it
Towards it
Away from it
"Oh, honey you can talk to me.
You can come to me with anything."
Sure
What a lie
You liar.
You don't deserve to know me.
You don't have what it takes to understand.
Your mind is so closed
And you play pretend like it's open.
It looks like you're point of view us scewed.
To you, you look perfect.
But to me you look like you.
You look like a man who's desprite for love
Who drinks the tears of orphans
Like an athlete drinks water.
Your wife says you look
Like an angel who fell from heaven.
All I see is an angel who was kicked out.
And I see every reason why
Sent to hell, but stopped half way
Because nobody wants you.
Except for the one just like you
Perfect you.
Perfect to you.
Attractive you.
Attractive only to you.
You see
You see how it works?
You see how this window opens?
See how easy I could climb out of it.
Notice how simple it is
How easily I could slip away.
You see how many people could come in?
How many guys could come in my room?
How many times I could be fucked?
All the options?
Every opportunity you give me.
Every trigger you pull.
I've only been fucked once
Mentally
By you.
I'm your mind fuck slut
And here I am stuck
Unprotected and weak.
My future looks bleak
What future?
The one you fucked.
Thanks.
Thanks for not listening
Thanks for not understanding
Thanks for 100 percent you
And holding me down at zero percent me.
