Harry Potter One shots + Imagines

Harry x reader #1

Tw: drugs,swearing,death,suicidal thoughts,all around angst

3 months. 3 months is how long I went without a single drug to help me numb the pain, but then my brother; the amazing Cedric Diggory, went and got himself killed. The pain of it all was too much so i elected to numb the pain with drugs and alcohol, i know it wasn't wise but it was either that or fall apart and i can't afford to fall apart not when my dad just lost his son and my boyfriend saw my brother killed. I know that I'm killing myself slowly but I need to numb it all.
Harry's pov
It's been a month since Cedric died, it's been a month since I started distancing myself from y/n, they look so much alike it kills me to see her when I'm the reason her brother is dead. But i've decided enough is enough, i know she's probably falling apart and I need to be there for her. I'm walking up to her dorm when I hear her scream so i start running to her dorm only to see her laughing and dancing around her room, "y/n? What's going on?" she looks at me and smiles "HARRY YOUR HERE!! COME DANCE WITH ME I LOVE THIS SONG" she shouts over the music, i walk towards her smiling thinking maybe i was wrong and she's okay then i smell it, the smell of a mix of weed and tequila. I look at her in worry and turn off the music. She stops dancing and looks at me in anger "what the hell harry!?" I looked at her in shock at her outburst. I've never once heard her shout at anyone i mean, it was y/n quiet and kind y/n who always put everyone before herself and always wanted to see people happy, she didn't yell at people. "I should be the one asking what the hell. Your drinking and taking drugs again aren't you?" I yell at her, I didn't mean to yell but I'm worried. She avoids eye contact before i make her look at me.So what about it? I'm allowed to have a little fun sometimes. Especially when i'm sad and alone because my boyfriend abandoned me after my brother was killed." she snaps at me before taking a swig of her drink and starts the music again, i walk out not being able to handle seeing her like this again before im gone she shouts,"YEAH WALK AWAY POTTER IT'S WHAT YOU DO BEST" i just sigh and walk away knowing i wont be able to have an actual conversation until she's sober.
I thought this was gonna last a few days but 3 weeks later she's still not sober. She's always high,not always drunk but always high. I decided that i need to talk to her and i need to make sure she's sober so i find out who all her dealers are and tell them all if they deal anything to her i'll make sure they regret it. Im sitting in the commons studying when y/n comes storming in, "what the fuck did you do." she shouts at me, everyone in the commons leaves knowing no one wants to witness what's about to happen between the two. "Im trying to help you y/n please let me" she just rolls her eyes in annoyance when her face morphs from one of annoyance to blind rage, "i'm really sick of you ruining my fun harry so here's what your gonna do, your gonna go back and tell everyone who you told me not to sell to me that they can or i swear to you, it's gonna get ugly fast." I looked at her in shock, not recognizing the girl in front of me as the one I fell in love with. "y/n no i won't because im trying to help you, you know as well as i do that Cedric wouldn't want you doing this to yourself." she looks at me with rage before snapping at me "okay you know what? It's your fault my brother is dead so don't tell me what he would want. It's your fault i'm like this and since you insist on ruining my friend i can only do one thing to show you how serious i am about making your life hell if you don't stop" before i can ask what she means she yells something i never imagined she would,"CRUCIO" and i start screaming in agony and i look up at her begging her to stop and she looks down at me before saying "tell me you'll stop harry, just let me have my fun." I shave my head before saying "no you'll have to kill me" she suddenly stops "i don't want to kill you harry i just..you dont understand this. You were a baby when your parents were killed, I grew up with Cedric. He was my best friend so I need this. The drugs help me so please stop." I look at her with pity, before saying "i'm not giving up on you y/n. You can curse me and scream and take all the shit you feel out on me but im not letting you destroy yourself." her eyes soften before they become cold again "well harry..i hope you're okay with having blood on your hands because everything that's about to happen is on you."  and then she leaves and I watch her leave scared of what she could have possibly meant by that.

y/n pov
Since Harry doesn't know how the hell to leave me alone I do the one thing that might make him hate me. I see a 2rd year slytherin and ask him if he knows where Draco is, "i think he's in the library" he tells me before walking to class. I go to the library in search of Draco and I finally find him and walk up to him and he looks up from his defense against the dark arts textbook, "y/n can i help you?" i smirk at him before sitting next to him and i put my hand on his leg, "i have a proposition for you draco" he looks at me in shock before smirking, "and what would that be?" i smirk at him before kissing him, i think we could have a lot of fun in each other's company draco. He just nods his head and goes in to kiss me again but i move my head "not here malfoy, come on let's go to the commons i have some weed we can smoke and make out it'll be fun" i tell him before getting up and shooting him a wink, "well are you coming?" I ask him and he gets up following me.
Draco and I are smoking and kissing when Harry storms in, "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING WITH MY GIRL MALFOY" he grabs Draco by his robes and draco gets out of his grip before yelling, "SHE CAME ON TO ME POTTER SHE WANTED THIS" he smirks before shooting me a wink and leaving. Harry just looks at me with rage in his eyes. I stand up and walk over to him gently touching his face before leaning in close to his lips and whispering "I told you id make your life hell but if you want me to be the girl you want stop spoiling my phone harry." He pushes me away and is pacing and keeps looking from the floor to me and i finally say something "something on your mind my love" i smirk at him after i ask him. He looks up at me with nothing but anger in his eyes and he replies "yeah there is just...i hope getting high is worth losing everyone and everything you love." i laugh at him before saying "not everything my love, i have drugs and i have you." he looks at me before walking over to me, gives me a kiss on the cheek before saying " you have drugs. Not me, i hope getting high is worth it y/n" and with that he walks out and i break knowing i just lost the one person i never wanted to lose all because i didn't want to feel the heartbreak of losing cedric