One Night

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"Craig, I'll pay. Name the price" tugon ko sa kausap kong si Craig over the phone.

"What has gotten into you? Are you out of your mind? Virgin ka. Then, you're willing to pay for some random guy to deflower you. What the fuck is happening to you?" Craig stated.

I rolled my eyes at him though hindi nya nakikita. I thought, I will not be having a hard time to convince this guy. Like duh, we've been arguing about this for an hour.

"I trust you Craig, i know you wont give me to a nobody. I trust your taste." I said with my sweet tone.

"Are you taking drugs? Are you under a spirit of some freakin' liquor Ivy Santamaria?" My mouth drops open. Seriously? drugs? alcohol?

"Craig! Seriously. Drugs? Alcohol? What the fudge? I'm perfectly sane. Are you nuts?"

"No, Ivy. I should be the one asking you that? Are you nuts? Are you suffering from some psychiatric disorder. Because if you are, I'd be more willing to take you to a Psychiatrist right now" he screech.

"I can't believe you Craig. Bakit ba kasi kailangan pa ng pagtatalo? I just need a guy. A good guy for a night. Just one damn night. For Jesus sake."

"Don't you dare drag Jesus name here Ivy. You're really getting into my skin. Kung kasama lang kita, i will strangle your neck to death Ivy Santamaria. I cant believe we're having this fuckin' conversation?"

"K. Fine Craig, if you can't help me with this. Then I'll find someone who can give me what i need, willingly. Thanks still, Goodbye." I pressed the end button without further ado.

I sighed. I feel the sudden yearning to cry. Cry? Ivy. You're really out of your freakin' mind. You faggot.

Then my phone rang. Craig is calling.

"Yes Craig?" my voice broke. Shit! You really cry Ivy. Fuck it.

"I-ivy? Fuck ! Did you cry? N-no, are you crying?"

"N-no" Bullshit. My voice failed me once again.

"You know why I'm being like this" Craig said. with his more serious tone. He's calm now.

I sobbed. I'm not a cry baby. So why I'm being so emotional now?

"Yeah, i fully understand" i said.

"Your 29. Old enough. You know what your doin'! You absolutely aware of what you're about to do. Ok, i'll find a guy for you." he outbreath. outhbreath of defeat.

I glow. He's gonna give me what i want. I knew it. i knew it. I'm smiling triumphantly.

"But before that Ivy, le'me know why you're doin' this" he said as he continues.

"I'm turning 30 a couple of months from now Craig." i told him.

"Aha ! i know that baby? so what's the connection?" Craig said, waiting for my next sentence.

"I'm not getting any younger. You know me Craig, I'm not a typical kind of woman. I don't do commitments. I don't believe in romantic love. I don't believe in forever. For me, it was just created by someone so foolish. I don't wanna engage myself into some serious bullshits because i know it will not last long. True love does not occur. It'll bring you in a seventh heaven but in the long run it'll destroy you physically, emotionally, spiritually. You know what ive been through. You know about my mother. You know me very well Craig. But on the other hand, i heard various stories about what it feels when having sex, when fucking, or as for some lunatic bitches is 'making love'. I wanna have sex. I want to be fuck. I want to know if it really can bring me to seventh heaven, to cloud nine. I want to feed my curiosity. Now, enough of this. Just give me the hotel address. I'll go ask the personnel which room then I'll find out. Craig?"

"Ok. Ivy. I understand. But if you change your mind. Le'me know. Dont engage yourself into things you're not really sure"

"I know Craig, i've made up my mind. Backing out isn't my forte, you know that. I'll wait Craig.Bye Craig. Thank you"

"Most welcome Ivy.Bye." then i hang up.

I really wanna do this.
Im quite nervous but a big part of me is excited.