Thank you each and everyone for showering so much and ofcourse for 300 followers. I am really greatful to you guys.
Sorry animasikku for makingg you wait for long😶
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Sitting in my cabin, doing nothing particularly and was justing thinking about only one person, Him. I'm still confused about his behaviour, what is wrong with him, it feels like he wants to say something but when I asks he instantly changes the topic. It's irritating and annoying and frustrating and i don't know what but i don't like it at all and maybe no one ever will. On top that, the moment I enter the office building what i hear is Avni this, Avni that. I mean it's like they gets paid not for working but just for sitting and gossiping and the main topic would or should be Avni Mehta. I don't feel like working here anymore but again i don't want to leave this job more precisely leave him. I know it's baseless to think that he could ever be mine cause he would never but everyone of us have crush on a particular person who can never be ours right.
I talked to Riya about this and she was laughing at me i don't even know why. Riya is actually my cousin sister but means more than my own sibling. She understands me like no one ever can. We all have one cousin right whom we love little more than any other cousins, she is that to me. She taught me a lot of things in every aspect of my life. She maybe is childish at times but when needed she can be the matured of all. Whenever we talk about relationships she always tells me not to trust anyone too fast cause she has faced a failed and abusive relationship. She was beyond repair but then he entered like an angel and fixed her broken soul. Though he was always there in her life since childhood but at that time he was a devil in disguise for her but now he is an angel from heaven. He as in Ali, our childhood bestie, no actually my childhood bestie and Riya's childhood enemy. I really adore them and I always pray to god to give me my angle soon. Where are you? I want it to be him but I know it's not him. It's not that he isn't an angel, he is, he is the who taught me what it feels like to be in love but wouldn't accept me in that way but who knows what may happen😝
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On the other end of the office he was sitting with few people discussing something actually they were discussing and he was completely zoned out and was having a battle with his own self.
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Let's do it today but how? Comeon Neil what do you mean by how do not forget who you are, why am i getting so nervous? I'll tell the matter and everything will be fine. But if she refuses, no she wouldn't dare to do that. But ughhh why am i getting confused. I need to relax, i need to be calm, i need to be me and this is not me. Focus and stop behaving like a kid. But what if her family refuses, from when have i started to think about others? She is overpowering my mind and I can't let that happen. She can't overpower my mind infact no one can do that. Am I getting scared? No definitely not why the fuck would i be scared and moreover there is nothing to be scared about and moreover i'm not scared of anything. I will be professional with her, it will only be a deal between us. Yes, only a fucking deal. Just a second, why am i thinking like that ofcourse it's just a deal. Did I thought it to be something else? No way to hell, i didn't thought it to be anything else i am just overthinking.
Sir...SIRRRR
N: Huhh and he looks at his sides totally confused
Employee: Sir can we go now?
N: where???
E: Umm... to completely the task duhh
N: What did you just said? His voice harsh and deep.
