I will love you like forever

Prologue

Some men are true cabbages ! They don't express. They take you for granted. They don't value your love. They thrash you away. They are not romantic they never admit that you are there girl friend. You are always friend zoned but they want you around always and will always lecture you for being careless as though you've married to them forever.

Years of being with someone like him I realised that true love is not about red roses, valentine special gifts, diamond rings and being princess but being all about having someone who can care you as though you are there child.

If you ever get this type of shitty guy in life  don't leave him.  

When I loved him , I felt he never needed me , when I left him I realised that without me he doesn't need himself too.

It was Kashi where we met him. He was on a Royal Enfield, smoking when we met him. There was no excitement no sadness in his face as us friends came and hugged him. He didn't hug as back. 

I was watching his wrists all filled with Bands, Bracelets and Cuts. They were very deep cuts. He must have done this so many times for he had bruises all over wrist
He looked pale, I wonder how he must be managing all these days without my food.

He wore a Loose Black Shirt with Cannabis Leaves Imprinted on it. A small white stud shone in his ears when light fell on it.His hair touched his shoulders and  wore a Rudraksh Mala

Another beautiful Chain with a ringged trishul encircling a Rudraksh was around his neck. My mind framed the design and wished to have something similar after this trip.

Within few minutes I realised that he resembled lord Shiva in a Modern Shirt, . His face had some divinity and maturedness which he lacked an year back.He wasn't the same Keshav today he was 15 months 24 days before.

He was a bubbly , happy go lucky guy , charming , cute and the most handsome hot guy I have ever known.

His face once always smiling. And today he looked down expressionless and numb as though I am a invisible spirit standing infront of him.

His face looked blank as though all the parts of his life are dead.

There must be enormous amount of Pain he went through and was still going through that made him something like this.  He must have tried really hard to become something like this.

I wanted to hug him. I wanted to cry.
I wanted to apologise for leaving him.  I wanted to fall in love once again with him, stay in that same 3 Bhk Flat and fight over not washing socks and not paying bills on time.  I wish I could ! But I cannot . Because Keshav Rajbir Malhotra is not worth it.
Some people will hurt you , dominate you and take you for granted and

He is not someone who ever gave me a single rose or told me how important I am in his life although we stayed under same roof for 4 god damn years.

I could still remember his attitude the day I left him. His arrogance, anger threats and abusive words still ring in my ears when I close my eyes thinking of him.

You must be wondering about what must have happened ! Isn't it ? Looking back at your ex is always painful especially when you life is getting better and there's getting nowhere. Nobody wants to see someone they love become something like this.

I wish I could tell you a Long story cut short but alas it's not possible. You cannot understand our story until you understand how complex we are. We are both like Marvel and DC together similar to each other yet cannot be together.

To the world he is a perfect guy but to me he is just a non sense.  So let me introduce you now the most unfortunate and confused being in World. I am Anamica A.K.A Aaloo.
I was Keshav's ex childhood friend, his ex, his ex best friend, his ex care taker , his ex servant, his ex cook  And today I'm just a stranger to this Mr Intoxicating face. Although I hate him for many things I cannot deny the fact that he still is the most handsome guy I ever met who still makes me wants to love him, who still makes me want to have a home with him , who still makes we want to get called as a "wife" by him. But that's too good to be true.

We had had enough fights. We cannot be together because we are not meant too.
The hatred I developed in my heart was far beyond words. He was just a corpse buried deep in graves my heart never knew roads too, but suddenly today when my eyes met me him , my heart started digging deeper ready again to get broken again , again and never ending again.

You want to know more ? So be it. We are on a bachelorette trip for my best friend Mikesh's Marraiage and we decided to take a chota chaar dham yatra and here I meet this creep who suddenly makes me feel sad bad and mad. What do you expect now ?