My Neighbor ~A Bakudeku story~

~Panic Attack

IZUKU POV

God I cant belive this. I have to be in a group project with KACCHAN. I might as well just beat myself up and scream at myself for what like 6 days. Well I hope we atleast get the work done.

It is after school thursday im sitting with Ururaka and lida "Guys this isnt funny what do I do" I said worriedly and it came out as a squeak. Ururaka looked at me after giggling a little, "Well whatever happens we have a party tommorow so lets look foward to that" She says with a smile, then lida speaks "Well Deku im not sure if bakugo hates you as much as you think,"

What? I look at him confused, when the self proclaimed 'bakusquad' bursts through the door. I look and see Mina approaching us, "Hey you guys wanna do something i cant wait for tommorow lets all have fun" She said with a wide grin and looked at me, "You too deku" Whats with people today???

I smiled and everyone sat around us when i heard something that brought chills down my back. I havent heard this voice for practically a year. I used to hear it alot when I was at my worst so why now.

Good luck he will probably tell you you are a worthless person just as usual. inko shouldnt have to deal with you, I thought I had told you this.

My expression dropped i quickly grabbed my hair. "Your turn deku" Mina said in an unsure tone seeing how i was looking and handed me the dice as people looked at me.

I looked up at her with a horrified look on my face but I tried concealing it with a smile, everyone now staring at me. I cant be here i think im gonna have a panic attack. My shirt is getting tighter, my collar is chocking me, im losing all my air. NOT AGAIN DAMNIT NOT AGAIN PLEASE IM BETTER NOW I HAVE A QUIRK LEAVE ME BE.

I need to get out of here before they all see this ill come up with an exuse tommorow. All my scars are burning but not in pain, in a way of asking for more. I feel myself about to scream but stop myself i practically have tunnel vision right now but i cant have people see this.

"sorry i have to go" I said between breaths and everyone looked at me worried. I need to-

What type of weak hero stop shows this weakness infront of people. God Your hopeless.

I wince at the words my head screams at me and shoot up from where I am. I run out of the common room with blurred vision FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUUUCK

Im not sure how i made it to my room but I did, and after opening the door i slam it and lock it. I grab my hair and slide down the door at this point hearing nothing but rings in my ears. I clutch at my shirt.

its suffocating me

why

is this really gonna happen again

I CANT BREATHE

I need inkos perfume

No i dont have it

I need someone

You dont have that either

I rip off my shirt and pants leaving me in my boxers as i kick of my shoes. I run to the bathroom and collapse falling and hugging my legs tightly as I cry.
I cant i wont cut myself not again i-

You should kill yourself instead

"SHUT UP DAMMIT" I didnt even realize what was going on when I caught myself looking through drawers. FUCK. I pull my hands back I need to stop myself, all might helped me before i need someone right now, i can still feel its still me i refuse to go theough this again. I hear a knock at my door and see the entire class plus aizawa at my door, I have people you see.

I throw open my door trying to hide my face by hanging my gead low and accidentally showing myself in only boxers to everyone plus aizawa scars on display, fuck, I cant think about that right now, in a hurry I grab whoever.
I slam my door closed after grabbing someone wait who did i gra-BAKUGO ARE YOU SHITTING ME RIGHT NOW

"Fuck not you please get out" My voice cracks at the end.  He steps closer to me making me flinch. But then I feel my body get warm as im pulled into a hug, i smell that familiar and refreshing salted caramel and instantly cry at the action.

I grab the back of his shirt "I need you to stop me" I said my voice cracking quickly before i felt the air knocked out of me again making me collapse. I could barely hear him but his voice was stoothing to hear at a time like this. "Im here im here please what do you need i can hel-" His voice faded as i clutched my hair again

Wow, youve suprised me invlolving a HIM to watch you fucking break down, How is it you are this pathetic, weak

I cry and hear the ringing again. "this cant happen again i think ill do what i did last time but succed" I said in a hushed cry he wrapped his arms around me and i felt the urge to cry at the affection. "it will all be ok izuku im here" he said in a low and warm tone, ive never heard him like this. I feel hot, he looks at my scars sadly making me look down in shame, but then he picks up my face and looks me in the eyes and does something ive never expected anyone to do.

He picks up my arm and kisses my scars. I looked at him shocked and felt water fall down my face as he goes softly up my arms to my shoulders kissing all my scars, making me feel more warmth then i ever thought i could and making me feel something i never have, or I never realized. He goes through my collar bone and makes it to my other arm where he kisses through my shoulders down to my wrists. I feel like were alone in the world as i clutch his hair while he makes me feel like were the only people in the infinite darkness we call the galaxy. I feel warm on the inside and i look at him seeing how handsome he is. Then he Goes back up my arm now at my collar bone while he leaves warm and light kisses now up my neck and i feel him suck under my ear making me moan and grab his hair. He picks up my chin again as he kisses me. I am pull his hair twoards me deepening the kiss.

"Im so sorry Izuku" I hear him say while he wraps his arms around me and we lay on the bed both feeling tired. "Thank you" I say now in a whisper. The voice is gone for good i thought happily as i fell into a deep and happy sleep.

YALL WHAT DO YOU THINKKKKK. SORRY THIS WHOLE THIS IS IZU POV I THINK FOR THIS TOPIC YOU SHOULD HEAR WHAT HES THINKING YK, NEXT CHAPTER YOULL GET MORE BAKU POV ANNNDDD DRUMROLLLLLL

<<DADZAWA>>

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