Toxic Love (Cameron Dallas Story)

Why Not?

Andrea POV

Its currently lunch time and as I'm heading there with Jordan, when I see Justin and some girl holding hands. It kinda hurt that he could replace me so fast, and to be honest I wanted to cry. Then I remember I have next period with him. I can't do it. I'll break down, I know I will. "Andy are you okay?" Jordan says pulling me out of  my thoughts. "Yea, I'm fine" I say. We finally sit down with Jared and Bailey and at the corner of my eye I see Justin and that girl walking towards us. I start to panic, because I really don't want them to sit here. Soon the girl sits down right beside Bailey, making Justin sit beside me. "Hey Bailey!" The girl says, giving Bailey a hug. "Hey Nichole" Bailey says. "Hey you guys" Justin says. "Hey" everyone says..except me. Soon, everyone is eating and socialising, but I'm just in my own little world. This is the girl Justin cheated on me with...or cheated on with me..whichever. Just seeing them kissing, laughing, and everything makes me wanna tear my heart out.I can feel the tears welling up in my eyes. I'm over here practically dying, and he doesnt even care. He never cared. "I gotta go" I say as I get up and walk away. As I go, I see Cameron standing beside the door. "Are you okay baby girl?" He says. "I'm fine" I say and walk out. I get to the back of the school and start crying on the bench.I get a text from Jordan, and quickly cut my phone off and throw it in my purse. As I look in my purse I  find my eyeliner pencil sharpener. I take out the blade and start cutting. The pain from the blade washed over the pain from Justin. However, it didn't help enough. I raise up my skirt and start cutting my thighs. At this point, there's blood running down my arms and legs. Some of you may think this pain is hell, but this is nothing compared to the years of pain Justin put me through. I'm not gonna say the whole thing was his fault, because I took part in it too, but I've always been there for him. I use to think he was always here too, until I finally realized that at times like this, when I need him most...he's never there. "I need to get out of here" I say to myself. I get up and start walking towards the bus stop, because I don't want Jared to see me like this, and he's my only ride. I get on and cry the whole way home. I get home and run straight to my room. I slam my door, and lock it. "Andrea aren't you supposed to be in school?! Andrea!" I hear my mom call me. I ignore her, and soon she gives up. I go in my closet and get out my bottle of vodka in my liquor stash. I gulp down half the bottle in under 5 minutes. I feel the numbness wash over my body and I finish the bottle. I hear my house phone going off and I send it to voice mail, and hear Jordan's voice "Andrea pick up this phone NOW! We've been calling and texting you for the past two hours! Even Cameron is asking about you girl. Plz call one of us or I'm coming over there". I cut my phone on and send her a text telling her I'm fine and to not come. She texts me back saying she won't. It made me feel a little better to know that Cameron cared. I don't know why everyone says he's a bad guy. Hes actually really sweet. I look down and see that I still have dry blood all over my legs and arms. I strip down, and put my dirty clothes in my basket. I run the bath and get in. I start scrubbing and washing my body, and after a few seconds, the water is red with my blood. I start crying again, because the numbness is wearing off. I let the water out and rinse myself off. I take a quick shower and get ready for bed, even though its only 6 pm. I look through my pajamas and see Justin's old shirt that he gave me to sleep in the last time I slept over his house. I put it on and grabbed my iPod. I quickly turned on "Pink- Just Like a Pill" and put it on repeat. I took my last swig of vodka and laid down and drifted to sleep.

Omg :'(  Justin is such and asshole...I would know. Anyway, Cameron seems like a real sweetheart...at least now he does >:) haha catch ya later✌