I came to the realization that I was being too hard on Harry. It's not his fault he's found someone who makes him smile. It's only selfish of me to be unhappy with his happiness. I stuff down my feelings and negative thoughts yet again. Im going to enjoy him the way I have him now .We finally end up having that movie night.
Half way during the movie Harry pauses it and turns to me. I stare at him with confusion "Is there something you need? I was heavily invested in that just now." I say in a lighthearted tone.
"I don't ever want you to feel like you're not significant to me, our friendship means everything to me...you know that don't you?" Harry says with a serious look in his eyes.
I feel a wave of shock sadness come over me. Ive made him feel like he's done something wrong because Im the one being stubborn. " I know that Harry. I've just been feeling a little down recently, no need to worry that mind of yours." I smile softly. His face relaxes and he smiles.
"You can come to me with anything , you don't have to worry alone."
"Yes Harry I understand, but seriously, Im fine. This feeling will pass." I say trying to convince myself of this as well. "Let's finish the movie yeah?". He nods and lays back again.
We shift our eyes back to the screen, but my thoughts go and continue to race. I can't even express my true feelings to my best friend in worries that it might ruin our friendship. I can't change the way things are, they just are. I look to him and he's laughing while he has a hand full of popcorn near his mouth. It makes me smile and I laugh. Thats Harry for you. He says the correct way to eat popcorn is to pile handfuls of it into your mouth, and to be honest he's not wrong. I grab the bowl of popcorn and begin to do the same.
---
By the time the movie ends Harry is fast asleep. I sit there for a moment and admire him, watching as his chest rises and falls with every breath he takes. I watch as nuzzles into the pillow next to him. I shake myself out of this state of infatuation and reach over to wake him up. "Harry... Harry wakeup, it's dark out and I know you need to be home soon." I whisper softly as his eyes begin to open gently. I offer a smile and he returns it.
"Thanks Lou, sorry for passing out on you, how was the ending?"
I roll my eyes and shrug. "Classic sappy love story, they obviously ended up together at the end."
He nods "Well I hope you didn't cry too much." He jokes.
"Ha Ha very funny, Im fine thanks for the concern."
He stands up and starts to collect his things. I watch him carefully and he makes his way to the door. "Well you are gonna walk me out aren't you?" he says lifting an eyebrow.
I stand up. "Well of course, it's not like you haven't been here thousands of times already." I say shoving him playfully.
He smirks and follows behind me "You need to watch me get into my car! What if someone happens to mug me within the 15 feet from my car and your front door?" He exaggerates.
"Oh yes Harry, that is more than likely to happen, seeing I live in a gated community and all." I explain.
"You never know, you might not know your neighbors as well as you think you do." He winks.
Always trying to give me scare, he knows it too. "Alright alright, go on home now, drive safely." I give him a hug goodbye and he gives me one last wave. I watch him enter his car and I turn around to go back inside. I think I might need to separate myself from Harry for a while, only until I can completely come to terms with the situation. I hope I can pull it off without making him think something is wrong.
I go back to my room and get ready for bed, as well as clean up the mess Harry and I made. I lay down in bed and stare at the ceiling for a while and then my eyes start to give out. Finally I drift off into sleep.
---
YOU ARE READING
What Are We? (Larry Stylinson)
FanfictionLouis and harry are best fiends. But when harry gets a girlfriend how will louis feel? Does harry even care how louis feels?