Who am I

Teenage years

Ages 16-17
From here on out I had dug deeper into what I might be going through or experiencing, that year my grandmother had passed away, anyoneone else would have cried, but instead everything was blank, moving it to the side I continued throughout the weak. At times I'd find myself crying over nothing, then using things as an excuse for it, like a family member dying, even tho I didn't care about it. Sooner or later I found a person I liked online, lasting a year during that time, the online friends I had saw I was a complete different person at times. My name changing along with my profile. I'd hurt others then later on not remembering what had happened, having to ask them only to see them replie saying I said or did something I knew I hadn't done. Things happened and I couldn't put together what I was doing. My relationships would fail everytime I tried, my mindset along with my feelings or my general self in all would destroy anything I had. Eventually I was in 9th grade, getting tested for learning problems only to ask if I had a simple learning complication, they had told me my grades where a rollercoaster each year, nothing was ever the same compared to everyone else. You where either good, ok or bad at a subject, accept for me. Soon after I ended up dropping out, not being able to handle everything happening.
To scared to figure out if something was severally wrong with me I just accepted I'd always be like this, and was to scared to get help.