I'll take care of you

4

Jamie's view
     Olivia seems like a a promising option for a mommy dom. It's been so long since I've had one, it makes me so sad. I have Steven, but he's franklins boyfriend and I feel so guilty for stealing him. Franklins a little himself, and I can't believe what he is feeling seeing his daddy taking care of another little.
     What if they're only my friends because they feel bad for me? Steven couldn't take seeing a sad, pathetic, and poor little boy without any caregiver, could he? I felt myself getting in my head and too much. I began shaking a little due to my anxiety. I'm in the play room, but by myself because Mabel had to go do chores. My tics i have due to my anxiety start to appear, I start shaking more because of this. I don't have my medicine, oh no. I need to get mommy, now please. I was so scared of bothering her but I finally convinced myself to walk the 10 feet to her office.
     I knocked quietly and whisper yelled, "M-mommy?" I didn't process until then that I'd been referring to her, or at least in my head, as mommy. Sometimes that's the only thing that will help me calm down. She probably thinks I'm a freak for already calling her mommy doesn't she? my thought were getting worse and I didn't get a reply from her. I knocked louder and spoke up a little bit more, "Mommy? Olivia? C-can I come in?" Again, I was met with silence. I had had enough and was starting to worry.
     I opened the door, technically unannounced, and I was met with an empty room. Where is she? I started to freak out and shake more. I was all alone in this strangers house, it's so big I can't find my way around. I can't take it I need to find her. I ran out of the room and began checking every room, crying a little and calling out her name. I checked every room but one, in big baby blue letters was a sign that said Charlie's room. Who's Charlie? Does Olivia already have another little, why didn't she tell me? is she just taking pity on me? Did Steven need a break from me, am I that much of an annoyance?
     My thoughts were getting worse, and I was actually getting scared of myself. I collapsed in front of the door and curled into a ball. I dug my eyes into knees and started bawling. i wasn't aware of how loud I was being until I heard frantic footsteps running up the stairs. "Jamie? Are you crying what's wrong?" I looked up and was met with Olivia's pretty blue eyes. I couldn't respond, I attempted to speak but my lip gave a quiver in response and it made me break down more. "Oh babygirl, what's wrong? Talk to me please I'm here for you," she had picked me up, and I was now crying into the crook of her neck with my legs wrapped around her waist. Thankfully I was a small guy, and therefore very easy to pick up.
     I don't know how long Olivia stood there rubbing my back and trying to calm me down, but I do know I fell asleep. I woke up in Olivias room, socks tucked in right next to me and a note of the tip of his pink button nose. Confused on what it was, I looked and it said "Hi, you fell asleep. When you wake up, when you're calm and rested you're welcome to join me in the playroom. We don't have to talk about what happened, unless you're comfortable- mommy," seeing that she called herself mommy made me blush a little.
     I head towards the play room with socks wrapped tight in my arms. My old mommy gave me socks, about 2 years ago. We broke up because I found out she had a husband, and a kid, and was pregnant with a 2nd. I was heart broken, that's so much to take in. I stayed locked in my room for weeks, living off of lunchables in my mini fridge. I never want to get hurt like that, ever again in my whole life.
     I arrived at the play room door, I almost knocked but stopped to remind myself that I was invited and it was okay to go in. When I walked in, Olivia was sitting on the floor, setting up what seem to be a giant princess doll house. Unable to contain myself, I squealed and quickly ran to the her. I gasped when I saw all the accessories and furniture "This is so cool livia!" I exclaimed extremely excited to play. I went to reach for a piece of the furniture I saw, but she swatted my hand away. She looked at me and rolled her eyes, then laughed a lil when she saw my frown, "its not ready yet little bit longer and we can play okay?" I nodded in response and she grabbed the back of my head and gently pushed me forward so she could give the top of my head a kiss. I giggled a little, then decided to play with some of the stuffed animals on the other side of the room.
I had been her with mommy for about a day. I started thinking about Franklin and Steven, "Um, Olivia?" She gave me a hum to signals she was listening, "Am I going back to Franklin house today?" She paused looking down and sighed, "I'm not sure bud, should would give him a call?" I jumped up fast, I missed them. They're my best friends and this has been the longest I've spent away from them in months. They're all I have, I don't know what I would do without them.