forget to love

The Test

     I Walk into the bedroom with my head held high.  "Joe, I think I might be pregnant," I say looking straight at him.  Joe slams his computer shut and closes the door. "No," He says "what do you mean?" I say looking down "We already have a danm kid, you can't keep another one" he walks away as if the conversion is done. usually, I would just walk away but not when it comes to my unborn child.  "Joe!" I yell "That's not your choice!" I say, my voice slowly getting smaller. "Fine, let's entertain the thought of having another brat running around, the house that I paid for." He closed the computer once again and walk over to the bed. He gently patted it, waiting for me to take a seat. "It's my house too, I help," I say looking him dead in the eye. "Help what? Help take care of the kid?" I look down "Wich, by the way, is a girl. you couldn't bother getting me a boy." joe stands up "take the preggers test, If it comes back positive, we'll talk. he brushes me away.

     I walk to the bathroom. I stand proudly in front of the mirror. A blonde woman with red lips and cheeks, that seems put together, stands in front of me. I reach out to touch my reflection, Then realize the confident woman in the mirror isn't me.  The way I just ley joe boss me around, I was nothing but an old chrone sitting in the corner waiting to die. I waited eagerly for the test to show. At this point, I didn't know what to wish for. I desperately wanted another child, but not with joe as their father. The red started appearing slowly. "Negative" I whispered. I fell to my knees crying. the way I let joe push me around, The only time I ever stood up to him, was when I thought I was with child. 

   I have had enough with joe. I was going to tell him I was pregnant. I don't care if it's a lie. Him believing it will be the only way out of our relationship.