LET'S PRETEND - BRANDON ARREAGA

MEMORIES - BRANDON ARREAGA

Brandon POV

Day by day, is the same thing everyday, eat shower, studio, sleep repeat. Each day was the same nothing changed. Okay maybe i'm exaggerating a bit, cause I still do my normal things everyday but it feels like my life just has missing gaps that need to be filled.

Currently it is 2:04 in the morning, I'm woke from making music the whole time , it's like I'm sleepy but I can't seem to close my eyes because they have been glued to a computer all night. Today I just needed to get all of my feelings out of me and into lyrics because sometimes I can't explain everything at once about how I feel.

Lately past memories have been on my mind a lot, like things that happened a year ago and I don't know why this is happening.

I sat my glasses on my piano and rubbed my eyes finding that the dimmed purple light and lack of sleep are making my eyes burn. After yawning and stretching in the chair I found myself staring off in space. Now I'm thinking about how I want to have a special someone to go out and eat food with and have fun little chick-fil-a dates or take photos for each other, just thinking about this fantasy makes me smile , but this perfect little dream soon comes to a end as I start thinking about my ex and how she probably has a boyfriend now and I'm never going to get her back and that I'm still in love wit- okay i think I'm gonna have a warm glass of milk to see if that makes me go to sleep, because I remember Raven used to tell me to do that when I can't sleep.

After I got me a glass of milk I went and sat on the couch and stared at the blank tv in front of me, all of a sudden I started getting a memory of me and Raven my ex girlfriend, and us on a rooftop with blankets.

Flashback
"Wow, this view is amazing"  she said looking in front of her smiling

"I know right" I said while looking at her

She turned and said "right it's bea- wait". She was confused and I started laughing

"B you know that was corny" she paused "but it was cute" finishing she looked down and grinned

"Your cute" I said giggling like a girl

"Your cute to" she snickered

"Ya but this view is beautiful tho" raven said looking back at the sunset

"Yea I know, I promise this time I'm looking in front of me" I said chuckling, she laughed.

"Yea, Yea" was all she said before going quite again

"Mhm, but both the views are great"

We looked at each other and smiled

"We should do this more often ya know" I said putting my head on top of hers while we were cuddling with the blankets

"Yeah we should"

FB over

Just wish I could get it all back.

I wonder what she's up to nowadays.

I finally finished that glass of milk, so I but it in the sink in the kitchen once I was done. I went to my room and shut down my music stuff then got in my bed, took off my glass and sat them on my night stand and shut of the purple lights. Maybe I should start think about what I'm gonna wear to the party me and the boys are going to, even tho I don't really want to be there. I'm just gonna go and hopefully enjoy myself, and now that I think about it, I should maybe stop thinking about my ex girlfriend because she probably got a whole boyfriend now.

After me thinking about a bunch on random stuff I final went to sleep, and it was 2:50. Not that bad.

Raven POV

Sitting in my kitchen eating Doritos, while looking at the refrigerator, why? I don't know why. I don't know why I'm still up at 2 o clock in the morning, but did I watch 10 episodes of family guy? Yup.

I keep drowning in my sorrows because I keep thinking about a special someone who I'm not dating anymore. I just miss him a lot, i miss our small talks, and our cuddles, and us woke at like 3:00 am while he lets me listen to the beats he made. Sadly all that came to a end last year. A few minutes ago I had a memory about me and Brandon staying up late at night, enjoying each other's company.

Flashback
"I like this" I stated, we were cuddling on the couch after watching Deadpool on Hulu

" what do you mean" he asked confused because I said it out of no where

"Oh nothing just us..sitting here hugging each other" he chuckled and kissed my forehead

"I know I am a pretty good hugger" he said smiling

"And other things" I mumbled, even though I'm quite sure he could hear me

He smirked then said "what was that baby"

"huh, oh uh nothing, i said your an amazing kiss- uh I mean hugger" I said trying to lie before making him snicker a 'yea right'

He kissed my forehead again, "Your so amazing, god I love you" the last part came out as a whisper

"I love you to" I said before dozing off to sleep on his chest leaving him grinning

FB over

And that was the first time we said we loved each other, or should I say love since I'm clearly not over him, and I don't think I ever will be. Who knows cause only time will tell, he's most likely moved on now. Damn I wish I could get it all back

I wonder if he's up right now. He probably can't sleep like me right now which is also why I'm drinking a warm glass of milk.

When I was done with my glass of milk I just decided to go to bed and call it a night and to try and stop thinking about the past for right now. I got in bed still dreaming about the man that I need back in my life.

A/N
Errrrr. I tried I hope y'all like this cause ion know but it's whatever. I'll see what I can do for the next chapter. Shout out to my fav ThatSameChristina  she helped me figure this out, hopefully you like it. It's kinda short but eh... and this was kinda boring