Today,Jungkook were sick.There rest of the member can't do anything and have to cancel their plan to spend some time with Jungkook while finding his precious memory.Junghyun seems not well too.He was take care of Jungkook since mid night.
"I'm sorry...you can leave this to me..i will take your place to look at him today.."said Jin while bring tray of food with that porridge for Jungkook and some breakfast meal for Junghyun.
Junghyun lowered his head to Jin as he saying thank to Jin.Both of them just watching at Jungkook who still sleep.He suddenly having fever.
"You know...you need to stay with Jungkook..i'm surely he having nightmare...that's why he suddenly fell sick."said Junghyun and slip the coffee that prepared by Jin.Jin look at with a pity.
"I was..hoping that i can take away his pain..no..all of his past..I know..i'm the one make him suffer a lot until these day...how could i call my self as his brother..he don't deserve have a brother like me..i wish..i shouldn't meet Jungkook at that time he was given a chance to live.."said Junghyun with full of his heart.Jin know that Junghyun being honest toward his feeling.Actually he feel the same way Junghyun thought.He wish he can take away Jungkook's pain and past.
"But..he always..stay stronger no matter what happen on him.He..still..can stand with all the things we make him down,disappointed and hurting himself"said Jin while rubbing Junghyun's shoulder gently.
"What do you mean by 'shouldn't me'?"suddenly Jin and Junghyun shocked when Jungkook suddenly talking.He open his eyes and look at them.
"Jung-"
"You guys must be know me better than anyone else.."said Jungkook.He force himself to have a seat.
"Jungkook..you don't have to force yourself...you have to rest.."said Jin helping Jungkook sit.
"Please..tell me...you guys decide to take me home..so you must know me more right??"said Jungkook with frustrated.
"Jungkook...we can talk about this after you recover.."said Junghyun then standing went to leaving Jungkook rest first.
"I heard your conversation..what does mean??am i do something wrong before?who am i in the past?Please tell me..i want to find some answer.."said Jungkook.Suddenly Jungkook listen something that make his ear hurt and pain in his headache.Jin quickly get Jungkook.
"Please..Jungkook..rest yourself first...i don't want you to pushing yourself...you just discharge from hospital..that why you-"
"He keep saying to me that i need to find my happiness..",said Jungkook who look at Jin with his serious eyes.
"Jungkook..i promise that i will tell you...but you need to rest first."said Jin.Jungkook nodding.Jin smile at Jungkook and help him to lay on the bed.Jin put the cold cloth at the Jungkook's forehead.
"You know..."Jin start to tell Jungkook the stories that Jungkook want to know.Jungkook slowly feel asleep.
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At the living room,Jin just out from Jungkook's room.Junghyun was fell asleep on the couch as he taking rest after tired taking care of Jungkook.Jin's thought still full of questions,he take out he Jungkook's memory crystal that showing some a light.
"Why they told Jungkook that he need to find the happiness..not his memories?",Jin's mind was keep thinking about what Jungkook told him.
"Hey Kim SeokJin-hyung!what are you staring at?",It's Taehyung who bothering Jin's mind while he gathering his thought about Jungkook.
"aaaaaa why??are you already take breakfast?"ask Jin.Taehyung don't get it why Jin asking him about breakfast.
"Hyung..you already prepare our breakfast before you bring to Jungkook."said Taehyung.Jin was shock then his hand on his head as he have headache.
"Taehyung..can you staying with Jungkook in his room..i..i have something to do first.."said Jin."Okay.."said Taehyung as he just look at Jin weirdly.Jin walking toward his room and thinking about Jungkook again.It should be Happiness of memory.
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2 hours later,Jungkook already wake up.Taehyung accompany Jungkook to having his lunch.
"After you done your lunch..don't forget to take your medicine and the other medicine for your painkiller."said Taehyung.Jungkook nod."Hey..Jungkook..if you have problem with your dream..just share with me.You don't have to hold your pain alone."said Taehyung as he lay his hand on Jungkook's shoulder.Jungkook didn't reply anything to Taehyung and just spacing out about something.Taehyung smile and,"don't worry..just don't force yourself..well..i get your water..".Taehyung was about to leaving the room to get the water for Jungkook but Jungkook reaching Taehyung's hand."Jungkook?"
"It's..someone want to kill me...the dream...nightmare..fear.."said Jungkook while looking down as he actually crying.Taehyung sigh with a smile.He got Jungkook.
"You can tell me the story of your dream..and help you to forget it."said Taehyung.
JUNGKOOK POV
"I meet someone familiar as me..he was a cheerful child.He always get praised by people around him.He wear a truly smile without faking it.He doesn't seems like he ever get hurt.No matter how much pain he got,he still stay strong.He told me,'your life is worse as ever,you should die and let me take your place as a new Jeon Jungkook'..i was thought why he said that to me.So i refuse him and turn away from him but he push me and said that in my life before,i'm the one who kill my parent,burden people around me.He keep saying that i don't deserve to live in this world.He..smile at me evilly and trying to kill me... "i told a story to him.
"Jung-"
"But suddenly,someone tall called Hyung by him fight him back and i just standing behind him and do nothing.But he said to me..'don't try to find any of your memory,Because the memory actually can hurt us more than kill ourself..just find your true happiness that i lost so much.'when thinking about that,how can i find my happiness if i don't remember anything of my memory?Did i ever being happy?have i ever laughing like normal people do?Hyung..you must have known about my life before right?have i ever being happy person?"
my mind keep thinking about my past.How i would be in my old self?Is that i'm a bad person that's why they hide from me?Maybe i already make them suffer with my attitude..
"Jungko-"
"You can tell me if i'm a bad person!Just tell me the truth!!i will take responsibility if i ever hurt you guys.."
TAEHYUNG POV
I don't even understand why he keep saying that he is a bad person.He really mean it what he said but honestly he is innocent person that nothing do wrong.He just always the one who hold so much pain his whole life.
"Just honest with me..and i won't bother you guys..you don't have to having me and act as you guys were kind to me.."said Jungkook.His eyes looking straight to my eyes as i saw the pain that he hold to much.
"Jungkook.listen to me,your old self before was not a bad person as you thought.You know,you are the strongest person i ever meet.I know how you feel when you have a bad life,you still want to live and keep your smile.You keep cheering us,do your best at all..even you fail so many time..You never make me and the rest of the member disappointed on you.You..are Jeon Jungkook i knew..i'm promise that i will help you no matter what happen.".I can see Jungkook really really still in confuse.
"Jungkook...rest your self first..you have to throw that memory..."i said.I put the oxygen mask on Jungkook to help him fell asleep.Actually,Jungkook seems like he serious want to know everything but i'm afraid if i lost it..
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One Day,If I Go
Random"And one day,my name didn't make they smile anymore.I'm just going to make everything around me beautiful...that's will be my life.."he saying with deepest in his heart.
