The Broken Hearted Girl

Chapter 4- First Day Of School Since Acciden't

I did not want to go to school today,

I mean why should I?

Everyone I thought was my friend was a faud, including that one greek that help me in computer class freshman year!

I looked down at my outfit and felt nothing at what I saw. Usually when distressed like this I felt depressed about it, but now that my heart is broken beyond compare,

who gives a flying flip?

I wore a black t-shirt with a pair of black skinny jeans I left my hair down and put not even a speck of make-up on my face.

I grabbed my bag and grabbed my phone and headed out to the kitchen where I found cat keys with a envelope. In the envelope was money for this week and a note saying how I wouldn't get more till next monday, I didn't even grab anything to eat like I use to before, I just didn't have the appetite anymore I got into my new dark blue fusion and drove to school.

I had just parked the car and was just about to lock it when I hear someone walk up behind me.

"Meg? Is that you sweetly? "Said the one person who knew me from the inside out by just looking at my drawings, the only one who would ever fully understand me, but that was before the accident, before my life changed forever. I turned around to see my art teacher Mrs. English, looking at me with a slight frown, she was one of the older teacher here at the school, her being only one with grand kids that were already attended a highschool close by she had long white hair that reached just waist and bright her eyes that, at times, seemed to look straight into your soul.

If you even had a soul for that matter. "Hey Mrs. English, I'm sorry that I missed so much class. "I pulled my bag over my shoulder before looking at Mrs. English more clearly.....she knows.....and I guess you know exactly why I did. "I said with a sigh.

"I'm so sorry meg, I know you didn't do it on purpose, you loved your brothers, what happened to you before you stepped into your car that day sweety? "She gently played a hand on my shoulder, onto my scars and looked away feom her soul skeeking eyes.

"I'll see you later, Mrs. English, I have to get to class. "I whispered out, afraid that my voice might betray how effected I was by her blutness.

I walked away from her and made my way to English were all I did was draw in my notebook, not paying a mind to anything around me not even those around me who would try to ask me questions or would say they were sorry ignore them all not wanting their pity or deciving books.

I will never open my heart to others again, never my math, science, and social studies was just my English class, full of drawing and ignoreing everyone. I was now making my way to lunch, the one thing I didn't want to go to.

Luck and lacy was going to be there, and I really didn't want to deal with them, I walked through the doors and not into the crowded lunchroom, everyone stopped talking and they looked up at me, surrounding as with loud silence I didn't even go in line not really wanting to eat, so I went to one of the tables that sat in the corner of the lunchroom and took out my sketch book once again I was in the middle of drawing one of my brother's faces when a shadow went over my drawing.

"Well well, looks like meg has finally came to school. Was two weeks long enough for you to lose the guilt of killing your brothers? Or are you not feeling guilty? "I looked up to see Luke meaningless my table with his eyes staring me down.

I didn't dare sat anything even if his words cut me deep as they made me realize why people were staring at me, the thought I did it on purpose.

"What? Cat got your tongue?

"He laughed at what he said , as it was a joke.

"I'm surprised that you haven't tryed to kill anyone else. I mean, you did kill your brothers,

what's stopped you from killing anyone else?

I looked down and continued drawing, hoping he would just go away, and leave me alone.

" you know meg, I really thought you loved your bothers, with how you would take care of them, lee them out of trouble, but I must have mistaken it, you were jealous of what they had, of how they had everyone's love and you had nothing.

Nothing but love from people who use you, teasing even real love! " I felt my hand skake as my mind replayed what happened that night,how compiled my brothers.

"Was I jealous?"

Was it really an accident "see, there you have it the murder has finally cracked. "I felt the tears flow and my hand drop my pencil as I started to second guess my actions,

Was I really a murder?

Did I mixed my brothers out of jealously?

I gatheredmy things and was about to run out of there when Luke grabbed my arm, turning me to him. " you caused their death, you including your parents. I hope you have a hell of a life.

"He let me go, causing me to drop to the ground in suddened as I tried to get his voice out of my head. You were jealous, you killed them. I felt my heart break beyond repair and felt my body turn into jell-O everyone was whispering, whispering about me, saying that I was a murder, more tears fell upon the ground as the bell rang and the teachers rushed people to their classes, leaving me alone, as I will always be.

That day I didn't even go to my last class, I just went home and sat in the dark praying for someone to end my life, to bring back my brothers........anthing.........

Mrs. English pov-

I was sitting at my desk as I waited for my last class to come in. It was my more advanced class, so it was 3 periods long and only had may be 15 people in there, but that wasn't the only thing I was waiting on, i was waiting for a call from my dear son who has a son, my grandson.

I wanted to have the last year with my grandson so I asked if he could live with me the rest of his senior year, I have yet to receive an answer.

I was just about to call him, as I was tried of waiting for him to call me l, when the bell rang well, it's just going to have to wait. I smiled at all my student as they made their way to their work stations, bit I noticed that meg hasn't came yet.

She use to be the first to arrive, where could that young lace be. "Tony, have you seen meg," I asked one of my student.

"No madame, but locks hear that she left at lunch, something about luke making fun of her and messing with her mind." he said , bloody hell,

what did that boy do now?

I was about to ask tony what was said when my phone rang. I quickly made my way over to it and picked it up.

"Hello this is Mrs. English, how many I help you? "Grandma? I was just calling to tell you I will be there tonight, I can't wait to see you grandma, dad has been driving me bloody mad with all his yelling into the phone at his workers and what not.

"I think some with you will do me some good. "Now this is what I wanted to hear. "I'll see you tonight, don't be too late or you will miss tea time mister. "Okay grandma. "I hung up and continued with class with a plan forming in my mind.....this is perfect.......