Chapter One-
When you love someone, you would do anything for them and i mean real love not the love that only lasts long enough for you to show it off for awhile. I mean the love that doesnt have a time limit or can never be defeated no matter what you do, or any problems you face.
But like all good things, some love comes to an end thats what she always said atleast, You dont want it to, but simply because you can only better them and yourself by moving on. But Moving on from the one good thing that made your life better is like trying to get over the impossible.
Loving someone so much it hurts can be a very good and very bad thing. It only makes you crave more. I try so hard to not give two shits what people say. The one person that can make me not feel so empty and alone is gone. And i let her go.
You always here those cliche quotes like "if you love someone let them go, and if they come back its meant to be" I thought those were all bullshit excuses to just help yourself have hope, but now its what i live by. The only thing that is keeping me alive is that hope.
But what do you do if that person is truly gone forever? Not the simple i lost her and she hates me how am i supposed to move on. Shes really gone. The love of my life is gone, because of me. We got into that fight because of me. She got into that car because of me. She died because of me.
You can never truly prepare yourself for losing the only thing in your life that has a purpose can you? But you also cant let your life go to waste because of it? Deep down i know that. And i know she would never want me to live my life in complete agony. But i just cant move on.
I want to pretend like im going to be ok, and that im going to get past this, but i would only be lying. We always promised we'd never leave eachothers side, and that in 70 years time she'd still be the light to my dark path i call my life. But she always said good things come to an end. I just didnt want to believe it.
A/N omg hi guys so this is my first official ALL BY MYSELF story. Its going to be a long ride, haha i really hope you guys like this first little snibbit the story will have past and present parts, but i will mkae them all obvious to what time place it is!!!! Also they WILL get longer i swear. Thank you so much for reading for the start im just going to update whenever but eventually ill get into a schedule!! ily and thank you!! follow my twitter and instagram for any further details.
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